I'm tire of all this thing you doing.

I look like a fool playing around by you.

Just last night, U wanted a break up.. I agree but in the end, u wanted me to give u another chance.

I'm ok. I can forget the stuff and start new. but today, u give me a totally fuck up attitude! How u wan me to treat u as? I really dunno.

I tried so hard yet i fall so hard down.

Melvin, are u really out to make me die then u happy?

I'm really tired of all this Ajs game.

really tire

Christopher

Christopher is officially tired.

Today went out with Jm, gene, dhas and JC. was actually a happy outing although i had the feeling of being left out cos they are both couple but i'm ok with it. Cause Mel is busy at Church. Then after dinner they wanted to watch movie but I didn't wanna watch. Cause :

1) I'm Tired

2) I'm really not in a mood for movie

3) Mel is not with miie

&

4) I'm broke.

I know it's my fault to cause the outing to be like this. I'm sorry

morning shouted at melmel. Felt so bad... Should't have shouted at him, he will like this is all because I make him worry and I can't make him feel save with me. Maybe I should reflect on myself. Really love him alot alot but just dunno how to show it. Or maybe i'm not good in showing.

CHRISTOPHER IS TIRED

I'M ALREADY VERY PISS OFF WITH CAMP STUFF! NOW U STILL WAN COME PISS ME OFF. YOU KNOW HOW TIRED I AM OVER ALL THIS STUFF! ALL THIS COMPASATING AND NOT COMPASATING STUFF. I AM THE VICTIM YET U MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE BITTEN AND SHOULD GET PAY ALOT ALOT.

FOR GOD SAKE. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MARRY THE WRONG HUBBY NOT I ASK YOU TO MARRY HIM. U ARE THE ONE WHO WANTED ALL THIS TO HAPPEND !! NOT ME.
SO FUCK OFF OF MY MIND AND GET A LIFE!!!!1

我好想你
我真得很爱很爱你， 不要离开我好吗？

Just wake up from a long sleep. Melvin is back to his emo self again.. Msging me all those msg that make me worry. Don't he know tat all those msg can make me crazy. I'm really going crazy soon.

Seriously, i'm not in the mood for anything.

I'm worried about melvin as his mum seem unhappy bout him going out everynight.

Then i'm also worried bout melvin thinking too much then keep blaming himself for all those things that is not his fault.

I'm worried that one day Melvin is tired of everything, he will want to die.

I'm very very worried bout him. I dunno why.

I have been worrying bout him in and out of camp. In camp nowsaday, I do feel the strange feeling when I see my old teammate. It's not tat i don't want to talk to them, it's just tat I feel very weird. I don't know why. Thing tat have happend cannot be change. Nither do I want to change it, anything wrong just make sure it don't happened again can le.

20 week more and I'm out of National Service then I will be going to work and work and work till I die. I wan to go for further study but, CAN I? I'm sure i can't cause of the $ problem. All my mum want is just for me to work and pay bill for her. So that's my life?

People often say they give birth to their children and it's their debt they own their children in the past life but I think differently. I seem to be the one in debt with them then this lifetime need to pay back them.

I'm really tired of everything. Really tired. let miie go ...

GOD!! Let me be by ur side tonight

Christopher |Xu Zhihao

Ajs

Many things in mind now but duno how to express in words.

Camp thing is really getter on my nerve. I am the one who got bitten then now u want me to go do baseguard. Wth.. I onli got 21 more week i will get my ass out of tat fucking retard system camp. Why can't u let me go in peace. Cheebye

FUCKING CB.. KNNBCCB...

Hate police .. fucking system, investigate the case only after a year and now wan transfer me to baseguard. Wtf la

Stupid idiot. Monday is going to be a hell day for u guys. U all better be prepare. cb. damm fucking pissed off now. dun make miie go to mp make this case to CP. I see who die first. KNN. I left 4 month then ORDs then u wan come find trouble with me. Let's see who die first

New

went out with the usual ppl to town again....
Usual PPL = Dhas, JC, Jm, Eugene, Daniel.
Bought dhaslie de gift.. a nice... something .. =P

alot to say but so lazy to type.. how nice if i can put everything up by saying it out..
Chris love mel