There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind.

She hated everyone except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?".

The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying

"JUST TAKE CARE OF MY EYES PLEASE."

This is how humans change when their status changes. Only few remember what life was before, and who has always been there in the most painful situations.

Took from toasted diary!

"Knowing they won’t say ‘hi’, i won’t bother much. Now i know what true friends are, and what ‘for the sake’ friends are. They are just ‘for the sake’ friends. Why did i even pass panadol to him? Why was i so kind towards him."

that line was found in JM blog just now. If I didn't take him as fren i wun bother reading him blog.. But neither do i wan to lose gene and dhas as fren.. Aj circle is like this, no matter how hard u try.. PPL still dun get along... Like Jasper and Andy Lai also.. I sometime really hate how this circle work. Why can't they get together.

I'm having a serious flu now + my nose is really block up then coughing.. and having the few problem on hand.. I'm really going crazy.

chris

OMG.. I'm sick.. flu and cough.. feel like drying le.. hais.. anw..

Today was a busy day over all...

Morning go to camp first thing is IUT test.. After which went down to store to put down phone then can go for break.. AS USUAL! STORE IN A MESS! Ppl just dunno how to clear up.. I dun understand.. Can someone tell me why?

Afternoon went to HTA for shooting with weiliang and a few other.. I pass.. 2nd class.. Weiliang fail.. hais.. He's going back for retest.. IPPT next month.. gt to train hard.. hope will dun fail till very ugly..

Chris.

My heart still hurt as if it was being stab by a dozen knife.

Heart really dead. Both on Adler and Alvin. Both A...

Tell me i'm still a life for what?

Don't understand why. Don't wanna know why...

Far too sad till can't cry. Now, I'm going to change myself. Abit by abit.

Chris

Many thing undone for the year of 2009... I don't wish to bring things over to 2010.. So I going to end all by 2009 31 Dec.. No point dragging on .. I also not drag queen..

2010.. My goal..

1) Back into Mac system. Complete BSMC, ASMC, EMPC.

2) Get bosses to notice me and target promotion to 1st in 2 year time.

3) Enjoy my life! CLUB AND OUTING IS A MUST! MONTHLY!

4) Get a car! By year end if can.

5) Renovate my room.. It's been dragging for years.. it shall be done next year

6) Cancel all phone line. Leave with one will do

Another night of crying..

I'm so sick of crying alone.. I hate tat feeling.. >.<

Tell me how to sleep without crying? can?

saw my di de msn. "Which Poly?!!" Then I was thinking, why didn't i make it to poly? Why didn't i study harder that time? I really don't understand... I hate my life now totally.. I wanna a new life.

All the time I have been trying to change my style of living to suit the ever changing world..

I'm poor and ugly, my I used to have a kind hearted heart but now? I have lost it.. to the world of Ajs that I need to show my bitchesness to defend myself..

Many thing I wanna do.. but.. I dunno how to start even.

Eugene was telling me about the feeling with Alvin, I admit. I was jealous.

Alvin tell me lovey lovey thing with his dar. I am jealous.

No matter how hard I try not to be jealous. I can't.

I'm jus a coward.

I hate crying. Like now..

Christopher

Just finish watching Avatar, a great movie I got to say.

Watched with Egg. To be frank, Egg is a nice guy, but I don't wish to hurt him like how I have hurt adler. So.. I think I wouldn't want to be dating with him ..

At home now, feeling so lost.. Like I say before, things happened one after another most of the time.. First is Jm's break up with Gene, now is Jm's attach with joshua. Aj circle is just so complex

FUCK

I AM CRYING! CCB

Sometime things just wun change no matter how much hard work you put in...

Somehow i'm tired of the Aj life...

Attach Break Up Patch.. All this is like keep on repeat plus.. r/s seem so short..

From Andy, Junior, Adler, Christopher, Melvin Tay, Melvin Tan... I also lost count of all the ppl le..

Actually all I want is just someone that will truly love me for who I am.. BUT it's jus so difficult to find. I gave up alot hope le..

Maybe I'm not the perfect guy that you all want,

but i'm just a normal guy who need love too...

All i want is a hug...

OK

I DECIDED

I AM GOING TO GIVE IT ONE TRY

ONE LAST TRY

I THINK... YOU ARE THE ONE FOR ME. I WILL DO WATEVER I CAN TO GET U BACK.. WAIT FOR ME.

2010 is coming soon.. here is my wish list..

1) NEW LOOK... ( Some how it will come true is wed things is successful)

2) More CLOTHES

3) LV WALLET

4) Iphone

5) New internet connection with FREE Laptop...

6) CLUB PLAY and have MORE MORE MORE FUN!!!!!

O yaya.. 1 last one...

most impt one.

I dun wanna a SINGLE 21st next year..

PLEASE

It's Monday, quiet a number of things have happened over the pass few days and I'm really very vex over it.

Friday Night : Joshua came over to PLAY and find Jm for don't know what reason, Jm didn't tell Gene but somehow gene already know Joshua is outside. Then they quarrel over it.

Saturday: Whole day out from Diso to AA Bday, the two of them just don't look ok.. During AA Bday, I can see gene is sad or should I say, unhappy. During club, wilson was there, as usual, he opened 2 bottle. Jm can't take too much wine so gene help him take, but.. in the end he was vomiting like hell at back alley.

Sunday: Went Zirca... As usual, gene dancing and Jm stand one side. When gene want accompany him. He dun wan... Jm wanted to go home first as his parent is unhappy le. So when his fren come fetch him he went off. BUT, HE DIDN'T WENT HOME BUT OUT HAVING SUPPER..

I really dunno wat is wrong between the two of them.. maybe dhas is right, it's better to leave them alone.

By right today suppose to be a happy day out having lunch with wilson but.. all things end up wrong.

Nw, i'm stuck at home and everybody is nt in a mood. Going to be 2010 le. but... hais

Christopher

I'm right now @ my cousin house for her house warming...
Tmr is my birthday.. but i guess it's another lonely birthday, althought jie jie rmb my birthday.. but the rest all clearly forgotten bout my special day.. So not only alvin is going to have a lonely birthday but miie too...

Tmr got no plan... later tonight meeting dad, mum and the clique.. I really dunno wat to do now.. feeling super moody... Feel so lonely.. really lonely.. dunno why i'm feeling this way.. i'm really damm tire nw...

I'm tire of all this thing you doing.

I look like a fool playing around by you.

Just last night, U wanted a break up.. I agree but in the end, u wanted me to give u another chance.

I'm ok. I can forget the stuff and start new. but today, u give me a totally fuck up attitude! How u wan me to treat u as? I really dunno.

I tried so hard yet i fall so hard down.

Melvin, are u really out to make me die then u happy?

I'm really tired of all this Ajs game.

really tire

Christopher

Christopher is officially tired.

Today went out with Jm, gene, dhas and JC. was actually a happy outing although i had the feeling of being left out cos they are both couple but i'm ok with it. Cause Mel is busy at Church. Then after dinner they wanted to watch movie but I didn't wanna watch. Cause :

1) I'm Tired

2) I'm really not in a mood for movie

3) Mel is not with miie

&

4) I'm broke.

I know it's my fault to cause the outing to be like this. I'm sorry

morning shouted at melmel. Felt so bad... Should't have shouted at him, he will like this is all because I make him worry and I can't make him feel save with me. Maybe I should reflect on myself. Really love him alot alot but just dunno how to show it. Or maybe i'm not good in showing.

CHRISTOPHER IS TIRED

I'M ALREADY VERY PISS OFF WITH CAMP STUFF! NOW U STILL WAN COME PISS ME OFF. YOU KNOW HOW TIRED I AM OVER ALL THIS STUFF! ALL THIS COMPASATING AND NOT COMPASATING STUFF. I AM THE VICTIM YET U MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M THE ONE WHO SHOULD BE BITTEN AND SHOULD GET PAY ALOT ALOT.

FOR GOD SAKE. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MARRY THE WRONG HUBBY NOT I ASK YOU TO MARRY HIM. U ARE THE ONE WHO WANTED ALL THIS TO HAPPEND !! NOT ME.
SO FUCK OFF OF MY MIND AND GET A LIFE!!!!1

我好想你
我真得很爱很爱你， 不要离开我好吗？

Just wake up from a long sleep. Melvin is back to his emo self again.. Msging me all those msg that make me worry. Don't he know tat all those msg can make me crazy. I'm really going crazy soon.

Seriously, i'm not in the mood for anything.

I'm worried about melvin as his mum seem unhappy bout him going out everynight.

Then i'm also worried bout melvin thinking too much then keep blaming himself for all those things that is not his fault.

I'm worried that one day Melvin is tired of everything, he will want to die.

I'm very very worried bout him. I dunno why.

I have been worrying bout him in and out of camp. In camp nowsaday, I do feel the strange feeling when I see my old teammate. It's not tat i don't want to talk to them, it's just tat I feel very weird. I don't know why. Thing tat have happend cannot be change. Nither do I want to change it, anything wrong just make sure it don't happened again can le.

20 week more and I'm out of National Service then I will be going to work and work and work till I die. I wan to go for further study but, CAN I? I'm sure i can't cause of the $ problem. All my mum want is just for me to work and pay bill for her. So that's my life?

People often say they give birth to their children and it's their debt they own their children in the past life but I think differently. I seem to be the one in debt with them then this lifetime need to pay back them.

I'm really tired of everything. Really tired. let miie go ...

GOD!! Let me be by ur side tonight

Christopher |Xu Zhihao

Ajs

Many things in mind now but duno how to express in words.

Camp thing is really getter on my nerve. I am the one who got bitten then now u want me to go do baseguard. Wth.. I onli got 21 more week i will get my ass out of tat fucking retard system camp. Why can't u let me go in peace. Cheebye

FUCKING CB.. KNNBCCB...

Hate police .. fucking system, investigate the case only after a year and now wan transfer me to baseguard. Wtf la

Stupid idiot. Monday is going to be a hell day for u guys. U all better be prepare. cb. damm fucking pissed off now. dun make miie go to mp make this case to CP. I see who die first. KNN. I left 4 month then ORDs then u wan come find trouble with me. Let's see who die first

New

went out with the usual ppl to town again....
Usual PPL = Dhas, JC, Jm, Eugene, Daniel.
Bought dhaslie de gift.. a nice... something .. =P

alot to say but so lazy to type.. how nice if i can put everything up by saying it out..
Chris love mel

last post was jus one month ago.

I use to say when I work in McD 笑一笑没事过不去
but now. i dunno if that still vaild.

Jus in 24 hour. My life ruin.
1) Bo wei say I abuse autorrity.
2) Kaijie piss miie off. yet now i have to say sorry
3) Though that Kimo-dear will an wei wo.. In the end got scolded from him
I know wat he scold is rite. but i really just wan someone to love miie. just someone.

Now dear is angry KJ is piss..
tmr i still must face BW for work.

Tell miie
tell miie how to I work with all this
i really dunno
dun wan to know. tell miie... WAT TO DO!@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@

BOO...
Back at home now... Sian..
Actually going to movie with Hayden but... I just gt no mood to watch movie then plus JJ seem unhappy bout it.. so.. yea, i gave it a miss.. hais..

Recenlly life been pretty boring and tired for miie. Hais.. WANNA ORD

Another day of NS life have pass.
So many feeling in my heart can ... Who can I talk to ?

Reach home only, mum is already at there nagging bout money..
Not that I don't wanna help but with my pityful salary how can I help?
Does she reliease how long have I not went shopping and buy new clothes..
All I get is from joey jie.. In this family, who really care whether i'm died or alive?
I really dunno... Can someone enlighted me?

If my frend in mine life is no longer around.. I think I would be finding way to go and died.
Kimo, DratinI the most importent ppl in my life i would say. No bf it's ok.. but without they two? I think i wun be here..

Love life... Now current .. Falling in love with Hayden (22).. but i dun think he will fall for miie.. so dun really got high hope.. like wat i told kor: I been in Aj circle so long... i know that nth can last forever in this circle...


Camp thing I really is in a ORD mode le.. I really dun care wat u ppl say le. All i want is ORD.

Christopher.

Went out with Hayden to Suntec to watch movie.. The Proposal..
The movie is so nice can.. Omg.. Love the story and most importently..
I'm watching it with HAYDEN! Omg can.. he is like damm cute la..
So happy can... If he agree to be with miie u wan miie do wat i also can.. (Provide it's reasonable la..)
Didn't take pic with him cos first outing Shy la.. haha...
Ytd was rave bday celebration at PLAY! Wilson Invite most ppl down.. Open 3 bottle.. haha..
it's was also last night that I meet Hayden.. haha
Didn't take pics in PLAY cos too busy dancing with ppl .. like HAYDEN.. Omg. Ok .. onli can pics of Kak and Dear at the hotel in bugis..

Dear Look so ..... haha

Kak DrainI and Kimo Dear.. =D

Bestie.. Hugs

Adler ... I Miss u.. Really.. Missing you as always
Bored in camp

Nice ma the spec?

@ KKH

BOO!

So bored.. Gt two day mc to rest at home...

It's like so bored now.. Hais...

IWANNAABOYFIREND!!!

ALDER KOH JIAN RUI!!!!!!!!!!!

READ THIS

I AM REALLY SORRY.

FINE!

NOTIHNG IS JUST GOIN TO GO MY WAY!
SO
ALL OF U.FUCK OFF! KNNBCCB!!!!!!!!!!!


Today chalet is a complete FUCK UP event. Pissed off
Why everything like tat
u tell miie
Wat the fuck
wan do chalet dunno how to help?
KNN

feeling pissed off now. Was qurraling with lolipop jus now.. ermm.. ok not fighting but jus tat
I pissed him off. Don ask why.

Then was talking with raymond.. he called from camp.
Everybody treat miie very nice
but all say
I need time to get into a relationship
WTH
Time time time
very free ar?
ALL I FUCKING WANT IS JUST SOMEONE TO LOVE MIIE
Very difficult ma? Wat the.

WHAT THE FUCK MAN.
MORNING FAIL TP ALREADY VERY UNLUCKY LE
NOW MUM COME IN NAG!!! WTF

CB
KNN
KNNBCCB


I'm really very very tired and really sick of all this. If u can't provide for your children. DON"T EVEN GET ONE. U are just making the children have a very bad life. And when u dun know how to choose a good the other half to get marry. DON'T GET MARRIED!! FUCK LA.

ALL USELESS PPL. ONLI KNOW HOW TO NAG NAG NAG.


CHAO CHEE BYE.

Super many bad thing happened to me lastly.
Don't know wats wrong .

Need a light to guide me though

Fail my TP. As what the uncle predict. FINE I will TAKE AGAIN! This time i wan to PASS
Feeling abit sad. But came across this book and a chapter then say this...

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The Law Of the Seed
An Apple tree bears five hundred apples, each with ten seeds, We might say, "That's alot of seeds! Why would you need so many seeds to grow just few more tree?

BECAUSE MOST SEEDS NEVER GROW.

In your life this principle might mean:
You'll need to attend twenty interviews to get one job.
You'll interview forty people to find one good employee.
You'll will talk tot fifty people to sell one house, car, vacuum cleaner, insurance policy, idea.

And you might need a hundred acpuaintances to find a special friend.

When we understand the "Law of Seed", we stop feeling like victims, We don't get disappointed.

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okay it's like so true. So i would feel sad anymore, it's just the first tried. I will do again and I will PASS the next time.

CHRISTOHPER JIA YOU~!

Today is a super bad day for me lor.
Kanna shoot till no tmr. KNS.
But nvm.. If now i'm in McDonald's system I will comfirm shoot u all till diam diam
too bad now is NS. I COMPLETELY DUN CARE!! Say all u wan. I dun care, all i wan is ORD.

OMG.. I'm so stick in maple now lo.. lol... haha.. the new skill are so nice lor.. lol...
Anyway TP in less then 48 hours.. OMG... WoRRY LA...

GOD PLS Let miie pass in one try can?? i will be super careful de.. just make sure no sudden event happened can?? hais...

Yo..
Blogging time...

REcap
1) Meet Andy Ang for the pass three day..
2) Went to Andy Lai Birthday Party on SAT night..
3) Driving lesson today . Feel like drying... NV DRIVE WHEN U JUST WAKE UP

BOring life...
Tp in 1 week time.. ARGH

Christopher
Iwannaberich

I know you will never fall in love with me shude.
I'm ugly and got tummy.
I got a pimple face
I'm niang
I dun have a good point.

but.....


I really love u .

Chris

many feeling in mind now. Many things had happened recently.
Had cancel the AIG plan so monthly will have $50 less to pay.. then Called to cancel M1 but they say will waives off 3 month bill and ask me to use this three month to think thru whether really want to cancel..

Pay day last friday.. But I spend all in a day. Parent just dun understand. I'm trying my best to save, but there are still many thing need to pay up. I really hope I can follow my plan to pay off debt and pay off every thing by August then I can have a happy Birthday on Nov.. So many troubling me now but ALL is got something to do with money. Is money really tat importent? If it's really that importent how did the ppl in the past surive when money is not being used? There are just so many problem that can't be resolve.

So time I really hope that I can win that 4D and solve all this problem but .. I know I will never win cause? I'm not good person i guess.. God never let me win 4D, TOTO or any gamble thingy.. But god always protect me from harm... other then getting bitten..

Something just don't go the way we wanted it to .. I know that logic but jus have the thinking to change it.

Christopher

Another day had pass. It's thursday..
Tmr, Friday cum PAY day.. but still got no plan tmr although...
Anyway this week had done de ticking.. and the tension between two team is getting more and more worse . Don't understand why they wan find trouble. Sian

TELL ME TELL ME .
WAT TO DO THEN I WILL BE HAPPY!!!

CHristopher

11 days have pass...
It's a boring sat for me today..
Friday night shift till 11pm, guan sent me to town then i cab from town home
after tat cab to meet kelvin woon at srgn.
1 plus am.. Cab to yishun meet kimo, dhas, Keev and baldovan..
Chat awhile then leave to dhas house along with kimo...
Morning go cab.. do the usual staff then leave at 11am..
Guan sent me home.. Reach home nap awhile then go to driving lesson..
After that go andy house talk talk..
after that which is now?
AT HOME ROT. By rite i should be at cathy waiting for JC to come pei wo
watch Ice age . but.. ..
PLANS ALWAYS LOSE TO LAST MIN CHANGER...
His fren BBQ was delay then he say comfirm with me later whether meeting me ..
Now is almost 9 and i'm still at home..

Daniel Kor keep calling me go down play but i really got no mood.

I feel so tired of the polities in camp nowsaday .. Derrick team vS Eswari team .. Sometime I wonder why ppl can be so childish. WTH.

Everybody also have their own problem but some choose to show everybody he is in trouble while some just keep to themsleve.

Christopher

Blog blog blog...

Last three day of camp was like BMTC..
Monday : Just because DY said he wan all dog in the west wing and east wing swoop over then we had to spent the whole morning moving 120 dog over in the kennel area..
Tuesday: Derrick can't go main building so keep find staff to do.. IN THE END. We are sweeping the leaves..
Wednesday: TODAY! Ask us scrub the kennel. WTH.. The more free Derrick is the more thing we need to do sia.. WTH..

Damm tired.. Today Joey pass me the money for driving 400... Hmmm... still thinknig whether tmr wan go out ma.. argh...

Christohper

Finally I'm back in this blog...
Change blog to blog bout some staff.. But still change back le..

TMR IS THE START OF A SHIT WEEK.
FUCKING SYSTEM TAT IS LIKE SO STUPIG CAN

DUNNO WAT THEY THINKING BOUT LOR.

hate my current life .


I WAN ORD. THIS IS THE MOST FUCKING LIFE STAGES I'M HAVING .

I'm broke...

Blog tmr.

btw i'm single

again!~

baby u are really very good in making me piss out don't u?

I don't know is it my mood really tat bad or I just can't take in ur question.
You said that u trust me but if you really trust me you wun have ask that question 2nd time.
I know I may be very bad to you today but it's just that i'm really jealous you going out with other guys and leaving your baby, me, alone at home on a weekend. You know my weekend is normally for you. sunday got church that i understand.
Okie nv mind. I don't wan bring that thing up again.
Let me cool down. MY mood really bad. really really bad. FYI, I was emoing till tear-ing in bus just now.

Argh.. Feel like shouting out loud.

IWANTADESTRESS METHOD A WAYTHATICANLETGOOFMYSELF.

I'm really very VEX!
I wanna a de-stress method.
Say that I'm not jealous is with my finger cross.

Feel like leaving this world. should I?

100 Truths about you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage:F&N Grape
2. Last phone call: Adler Koh
3. Last text message: Gabriel
4. Last song you listened to: Nobody by Wonder Girl
5. Last time you cried: 3 weeks back

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: No
7. Been cheated on: YES
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: Yes, Eschier
10. Been depressed: Yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: Yes

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Purple
13. Black
14. Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: Yes
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: No
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Maybe 70%
23. How many kids do you want to have: 1 boy
24. Do you have any pets: No. but in camp have
25. Do you want to change your name: Yes
26. What did you do for your last birthday: @home slack till night time when some fren realise it was my birthday and ask me out to Kbox
27. What time did you wake up today: 6am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: RC
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: ORD
30. Last time you saw your Mother: ytd.. she was off
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Everything..
32. What are you listening to right now: Dunno.. Radio
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: PPL in camp being so PLASTIC
35. Most visited website: FB
36. Whats your real name: XU ZHIHAO
37. Nicknames: Christopher, didi
38. Relationship Status: Attach
39. Zodiac sign: Scorpio
40. Male or female?: Male
41. Elementary?: PPS
42. Middle School?: SKSS
43. High school/college?: ITE
44. Hair color: Black
45. Long or short: Normal
46. Height: 180cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Not now
48: What do you like about yourself?: NOTHING
49. Piercings: No
50. Tattoos: No
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Got bitten by Eschier. In hospital one week. 3 Surgery
53. First piercing: Never had
54. First best fren: Kimo, dhas..

55. First sport you joined:Basketball in Pri
56. First vacation: Genting..zzz
58. First pair of trainers: NS lo

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: NO
60. Drinking: NO
61. I'm about to: nth?
62. Listening to: Radio
63. Waiting on: Adler to finish eating
YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: Yes
65. Get Married?: dunno
66. Career?: McDonald

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Lips
68. Hugs or kisses: Huggies
69. Shorter or taller: Shorter
70. Older or Younger: Young
71. Romantic or spontaneous: romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Abs and lean muscle woooo la la..faint on spot
73. Sensitive or loud:?????
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant is better then trouble marker spoil rs..

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Yes.. Dalton counted?
77. Drank hard liquor: Ya
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope
79. Sex on first date: No..
80. Broken someone's heart: Yes
82. Been arrested: NO..
83. Turned someone down: Yes alot of times..all irritates me..so off u go..
84. Cried when someone died: No. Only cried when my eschier pass away
85. Fallen for a friend?: YES!!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Yes
87. Miracles: Yes
88. Love at first sight: Yes
89. Heaven: Yes
90. Santa Claus: Maybe if i receive in durin christmas..by himself..take it or leave it santa
91. Kiss on the first date: Depends
92. Angels: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: Nobody Nobody but you
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: No i faithful de
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: SECONDARY
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Dont know
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Sometime..
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes

Blogging Time.. Today is in a mood for blogging .. so let me update my life..

Re-Cap:
5 May: Meet Adler for Dinner...
9 May: Driving Lesson and Kennel Duties..
11May: Pay Day.. Lots of debt to clear.. gotta find way to clear fast men..
12May: E-Prep At HTNS BB
13May:SOC Movie Day- Battle in Sealatte
15May: Half Leave. Meet Adler, Mel, Ernest and Jason for movie.. Angels and Demons.. 8/10.. =)
16May: Actually was going to drop by Ed's Chalet but he is piss and angry with cos I say I was going to Seng Guan Bday instead of his. I.. don't know what I can do .
17May: Driving Lesson - Parking. Need to improve car control. No mood time always drive like first lesson... Jian Xing 20th Bday
18May:Seng Guan 21st Birthday
19May: TanBoonHow Birthday. Happy Bday

Current Status. Attach To Adler
Current Mood: Unknown.

I'm so vex. So many thing in mind.. debt in the long list to clear.. Phone bill, internet bill. Things to Clear b4 ORDs, IPPT and Shooting..

Medical review next week friday. After that I will get to know if I will get compensation for the injury, I used to think that that money I don't really want all I wan is Eschier to be alive but now I'm starting to hope tat money will come and let me clear all debt.

Manytime when I'm alone, I also think of Eschier, the training we had the time we spend and how other is scare of you. With you around I feel so safe.. so so safe.. You are the first dog I had and I am so happy that I choose or Sir Tiger given you to me for training.. Many dog I try to handing nowsaday due to the work need but none is like you. The one that will really listen to me talk and understand how I feel. Begi don't understand all she wan is AWOL .NO matter how hard I train her or talk to her. Eschier baby, if u are feel can help me talk to her? Boy, I miss you.

Ok. This is the end..
Dunno when will update again.. Needed de-stress..

CHRIS

EVENING ALL~~~ haha

Know why I so HAPPY?? Cos I have a wonderful BF call ADLER KOH JIANRUI =P
Muack..

LAst few day in camp was so bored..

Today in camp as usual.. bored.. but due to the swine flu.. need take temp 3 time a day. sian.. waste time de lo.. U think like that gt use mei? chey..

So boring ...
Sunday with no money equal to a boring day.

Morning wake up at 9 plus by mum.. then went back sleeping till 12 plus..
Wake up watched TV then went off to grandma house.. stay awhile then walk to
HGM to top up ezlink..After that wake round the shopping mall aimlessly..
then went back home...

Back at home.. Chat in IRC with Channel Aj awhile then went to take a nap..

Melvin is getting me pissing me off.. Can't he find other bf .. not as if Singapore only one guy.. keep emo.. emo still nvm .. then keep fan wo.. Not tat I don't wan cheer u up.. it's just that you really piss me off TOTALLY!

Charmain jie jie is in trouble but i gt no time to talk to her bout it.. argh.. feel so bad..

Christopher
Missing TANBOONHOW~

back here blogging..
Firstly, I'm attach to TAN BOON HOW. MY DEAR .. Muack..

Lately work has not been good for me I guess.. People are saying that I act like
senior now but I didn't realize.. My dislike for Yee jian is getting from bad to worse.
Time and again I have been trying hard to improve but it fails.

Bo wei, Wei Xiang and Jing Xiang is all planning their future after ORDs.ME? I don't even comfirm wat i'm going to do. Why my parent is not as supportive as their parent? I hate to lose the chance to study. Sometime i hope to get a person I can talk to .. but ... Who CAN I talk to?

Tell me I'm not alone.

STRESS and SAD.

Christopher

In a foul mood now. Shall not talk bout it.

Bought e wallet from xiiang dear . but found out that the card sort very little and + that the card slot one only can put in one card. Argh..

Anyway, Joey bought me to see the doctor for my face le. Spent 48 buck in total..
The more good she is o me the more I'm afraid that she wan me to do something in return.

11month more to ORD date. Although I hope that it will come first, i'm also worry bout my future as I can't see my near future at all.

Dunno how to cheer up my mood.

Chalet on 18-19April
Genting 12- 15 June.. ( nOt comfirm. cos i'm so nt in the mood nw. )


Christopher. Trying hard to smile.

Not in a good mood for sure..
Last night got to know my intake the promotion date is 9April, by right I should be happy but I'm not. Cause I'M NOT PROMOTED DUE TO I NEVER FUCKING PASS THE IPPT. WTF. Is Physical fitness that important.

Cause of that I'm in quite a FOUL MOOD nw. Plus being Single and having to work with people I dun like. It's like fucking tired.

I wanna get out of NS soon man.. I HATE MY CURRENT LIFE.

Feel like crying .

Christopher

Yawn~~~

So Tired lo..

Went to work at 0630 this morning, everything was fine.. YJ was late.. SG sent me home as he meeting his fren in HG.. Then thats all.. TL is STRESS..

After that went home bath.. then went over to grandma house b4 it start raining.. then jiejie come drop his kids then go pick up Aunt family as it's raining..

Chatted as usual.. time files... then it's 1900.. home sweet home..

xiiang dear selling the burberry wallet at 280.. I'M GOING TO BUT IT LO.. haha..
no matter wat.. =P..

It time for me to grow up and save money for future.. If i can save money to paid for that wallet .. I believe I can save for the furture..

CHRISTOHPER JIA YOU!

Chris

IM SICK.. argh..
sick without bf means ... hais..

Anyway today is eschier's 7th year birthday..
Happy birthday boiboi.. Huggies.. I miss u..

Camp was ok .. normal NPCC visit make me very tired nowsday..
argh..

Feeling damm unwell now.. I think i need to take a break soon..

Feel like goin oversea..
Shall save some money and go malaysia or batam for holiday..

Anyone wan go with this lonely boi??

Chris.

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
Always not enough money de me...

I guess no matter how much I earn also can't cover the amt i spend..
hais
Chris ar chris.. NS is suppose to be a time for people to learn how to spend within a little amt of money.. but in the end.. I end up taking money for mum.. argh... WTF i doing man..

Next month on I shall DIE DIE follow the plan below. No money. DUN CLUB!!!

Salary = $600
Transport = $50
Insurance = $50
Phone Bill = $200 monthly..
Meal = $80, $20 per week
-------------------------------
Left over / buffer = $220/=

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


This test is so true.

I decided to do this quiz anyway nth to do...

1. Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?

Neck?

2. How do you feel when you woke up this morning?

Sad because today got to go work again

3. Who was the last person who you took photo with?
too many.. Its a group photo

4. Would you consider to be spoiled?

Only by my the other half =P

5. Would you ever donate blood?

Onli if that person that needs it is someone that I can't leave without..

6. Have you have a good friend of an opposite sex?

Nur'ain

7. Do you want someone dead?

A\\\Alot.. haha.. jk

8. What does your last text msg say?

ya la... Wat u expect. now dam shag lor.. hais. (by KIMO) haha

9. What are you thinking of right now?
SHOPPING & GETTING MY DRIVING License

10. Do you wish someone was with you right now?

YES

11. When did you go to sleep last night?

2300

12. Where did you bought your T-shirt that you are wearing now?

Who even care

13. Is someone in your mind right now?

yes

14. Who is the last person who texted you?

Kimo Ong Ke Ren

Omg i am only gonna sony him

Off to bed on.
with red eyes.
dun wanna wake up tmr
if can please..........
brain wash me



Christopher
a boi that no-body love

I'm Crying.
But
Done anyone even bother
or
know?
(Sobbing real hard now.)

OK I'm jea_ _ _ _. Argh. Kill me la..

Today camp was okie. Done grooming for 2 dog, willy and burno. Then groom my galgal..
after that afternoon NPCC visit.

Then that YJ do something that piss me off again. I try my best not to scold him while he try his best to piss me off. WTH.

Single seem so lonely. but with stead I scare hurt the other. someone tell me wat to do?

Christopher

Short post b4 I go to bed..

Today was a normal day without any strange things.
Suddenly I feel that those thing I do to make YJ angry seem so childish.

Today help Desmond go into Bex and booley kennel..

Very mood less nowadays.
-Love less
-Cash less
-no cpl


I'm SAD ARGH

Chris -- Fucker

Time to blog..

Wake up round 6 am .. Prepare to things for camp.
finish everything round 11am.. then slacked till 12.15 then leave base as guan driving me home.
On the way back guan taught me alot of things bout driving and I realize that there is alot of thing that we can learn from one another. I maybe good in kennel duties but guan is better in driving.

Went to grandma house before coming home. Grandma looks old.

Came home. Clear up my desk and throw away things that is not useful.

Time files, it's been one year since I enlisted. Rmb 1 year ago I was still worrying bout getting use to being a Police for my NS. Now things have all fallen into places. Many thing that I plan to do did not really accomplism the onli things that I had just started is driving lesson.

I'm still wondering whether I should take O lvl. Many things I wanna clear up but alway end up forgeting .

I feel lonely.

Christopher Ajs

Once again, Chris hurt another boy.
Hate it man.. Chris, U better off dead la..

Today: DZ went to take IPPT but fail.. Desmond Iphone spoilt but in the end self-recover.
After work went to eat then home.

Some things wei xiang told me today make me keep thinking bout it. He said I used to me like daniel aka Eye power king. Then I was like thinking did I? Maybe I did but I can't rmb at all.

Nowaday I feel so bitch. Keep bitching bout YJ. Why am I doing all this?? Does that do me any good? I wanna change. Tmr onward. Can I shall think bout other feeling before bitching.

I'm really scare of the retrubution.

Christopher

Christopher

Christopher

SUX

Yea back here blogging.. Life sux big time for me man. hais..

Things that I had clear.
1) Singtel Bill
2) M1 bill
3) Bought the train concession

Went to the dentist on last wed.. got one of my tooth remove and had medicine on another..
It still hurt till now due to a bit swollen.

Thursday is pay day!! went to amk hub to watch the Dargonball Evolution with Zhong, Xiang and Desmond. Enjoy myself.

Friday was SOC active day. Got back stab by boss on this day. Argh.. YOU JUST TOUCH MY TAIL!!!

Driving lesson on sat was fun.. I think I really had to practice more.. haha Next lesson on next sat 5.30pm.. after that i went to IT fair with ed. he bought a harddisk and a computer.. Me, end up with nothing.. hais.. I shall save up.. next year IT fair I will go buy something that I wan. hump.



I started to think tat, I really enjoy going out with fren rather then going out with steads.. haha

Christopher time to grow up.

3rd to 5 nth much happened other then Vito boated stomach.. but he is fine now.
Last friday went ACR with derrick.. was a good experience.. Shall not go into detail if i not i will get charge..

Sat went to club as PLAY is closing for renovation.. Alcohol is like in low price.. got a little tipsy. Dance very high.. haha.. Thanks kimo for acc me.. =)

then nth much happened already.. haha

Tmr going to see dentist as the tooth is hurting like hell.. I needed to settle it fast.

Suddenly I found that my mum seem to be the best mum. With her a woman that don't earn much. She gave me extra cash every month and I took it as if she owe me actually, she owe me nth.
I promise after I ORDs, mummy u will confirm lead a confortable life. High tea everyday. haha

I PROMISE>

Christoper
Ajs

I'm fucking pisssed over some people.. hais.

Friday doing ACR (night shift) with Delta. Hope will get to do with Jason..cos the other two GP i dun really know them..

Many things to be settle
1) Need to apply PDL
2) Need to Clear up my table..
3) Need to clear up my mind aka brain..

Christ

Just now in IRC saw a @ people name Yijan.. I almost faint men...
Thought it was him.. Lucky it's someone else..

Anyway today was a normal day.. Just one word.
TIRED...

I'm so tired ..

Otw home just now I was thinking bout what I want to do in 5 year time.. suddenly I can't think of anything. Mac Manager? Event Manager? I really dunno..


Maybe it' s time to think?

Had a great night in PLAY last sat. Know a new fren. Dalton..

Christopher

Bogging again.

Today told DZ my secret trusting that he will keep it to himself .
Anyway I didn't tell him the whole true. Sorry.

HE told me something bout someone in the camp that I really cannot believe it.
Seem like in this world everyone is stabbing one another but what's the point.
Does hurting each other make them grow up faster ?

Christopher must try to do this.
DON"T BITCH OTHER AT THEIR BACK. DON'T HELP NVM, DON'T ADD OIL TO FIRE.

Okay I guess I did it again..
I pissed Yee Jian Off and it's really my fault.
All my big mouth. I will nv believe love at first sight again le.
I hurt Melvin and Yee jian now. I'm a jerk. I'm not fit to wear the ring mel gave.
I'm a fucking sucker.

Really don't know what the point of me living.
Make mum spend more money?
Make more people get hurt?
Make my friend hate me?

ROAR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I need a break of destress method.

If I'm working in Mac I still can MIA. But now in ns. MIA = AWOL.

Chris. Sux

Another week is almost passing..
Back in my rm again blogging.
I think I just pissed Yee Jian And Edison off..
hais.. Just wat the hell I did..
CHRISTOHPER FUCK OFF..

This few week been trouble by this staff..
-FTT ( Completed.. PASSED.. haha)
-How to make Yee jian better in doing kennel hand work.
-How to pleased Edison..
-STOP BITCHING...

Headache now.. Cos of the Tooth.. Argh..

Need a fren by my side, Turned around but I see no one.

God, maybe it's time to take me by ur side?

Chris. Tired

Another day I stay at home SLEEPING.. Dunno why keep feeling very tired nowsaday..
Maybe because of the medicine..

Tmr is monday.. MONDAY BLUE AGAIN.. hais.. TIRED..
How I hope NS life will end fast.. haha...
MARCH 2010.. My Happiest MONTH.. haha..

My tooth is still hurting..

dunno wat to say le.. haha..

bb

CHristopher (Ajs)

Okay ytd was a bad day for me that's why didn't blog.
I was in huge pain that I went to SGH A&E in the midnight with Ain..
Then the doctor gave me pain killer that ease my pain. Anyway I'm told to go see a dentist asap and I shall go on this tuesday..

Just now I went to SSDC to take the trial test for FTT .. Guess how much I got?
49/50.. I also dun believe.. =D I thought my eyesight got problem.. haha

Okay let me post the Thursday night photo..

In camp now ... Ytd stayed over night in camp.
Almost all kennel hand stayed other then Bo Wei, Seng Guan and Zhi jing.
It quite enjoying for the whole night..
I shall post the photo I took later tonight as now i'm in camp..

Viewing the pass entires i make..
99% UNhappy things..
1% Abit happy.

Wat can be worse then my life?

Life Been Lost for me this year.

Really dunno what I should do.

Many promise I make but not able to fulfill.
-Wait for edison
-last long with mel
-Take O level.

I'm such a lier.

Someone can wake me up?

Now in my mind. Only U. YJ. If u tell me u dun wan me go Club. I will nv go again.

Fucker

Christohper is sad + emo = moodless..

Been a boring day .
Went to grandma house for awhile.
help mum bought 4D
Came back home slack..
Was waiting for YJ msg..
but he nv msg ..

I think I can guess the answer...
sorry

hmmm... Somthing happened today.. Morning was abit emo..
then went to kennel area to be quick Begi..
Then a received a msg that write..
"Hubby where are you?"
First thing come in my mind: Am I seeing things?
then i slowly come to my sense that it's really jian calling me hubby..
Then i was trying to think back and see when did we start to be together..
then I recall nothing bout it.. So I'm like lost.. but I'm happy. haha.
Stupid me..

Anyway work was as usual.. Other then derrick tell me something that wanted my life..
"You and terence draw lots see who go APB" I feel like dying that moment lol..
Lucky Terence say he will tell derrick he wan go..


Anyway terence passed his FTT le.. Congrat.. Mines on 24 FEb.. Wish me luck men..

1st reason that I like jian is..
He is honest in what he tell me.

Chistopher ..

part 2..
Was in talking on the phone thats why I stop bloggin awhile..

Anyway was saying bout coming back.
Tonight is the last night Xu Zhihao is working as kennel hand..
Tomorrow onward, it's Christohper working as kennel hand.
No more mistake shall be make, even if it takes me to learn everything again.
I'm not longer the old bird in kennel hand as I shall refresh everything I learn and teach my trainee well..

CHRISTOHPER ROXs....

Next things.. FAmily..

- Christopher will not take money from grandma for now on.
- Christopher will not take more then $40 from mum every month..
- Christopher must learn how to save...
- Christopher must grow up.

TMR IS THE DAY........................

I'm Single again..
This time I initial the break up.
Nvm shall not said further in that..

Today something happened which make me stop and really think..
First time JX told me off.. =(
I'm not angry nor am i sad.. I'm just piss off with my own working style..
Christopher the one that can manage 40 crew on floor can't do work well.
I DON'T BELIEVE IT MAN..
It's time to wake the old christopher up
The leader in sch and manager in Mac..

to be .........

Today was a short easy day for me..

Wake up at 11am.. Watch tv till 1pm..
went to grandma house till 2pm..
went to hg mall repair dad's watch..
reach home at 3pm.. watch tv till fall asleep..
wake up at 7 watch tv again..
then now..
ONLINE..
haha

Then now chatting in msn..
Suddenly had this thought in mind..
BF is not a must .. but BFF is a must..


Christopher

Another day have pass again..
Every was normal. New intake follow us for the last day as they are going to join team to do base guard and go to sub-bases. 3 of them join kennel hand. Yee Jian, Seng Guan and Zi jin.

Today I found out something. Every kennel hand got something they are proud of. but not me.
Let's see..
Jing Xiang = The most experienced kennel hand.
Wei Wei = Super-star
Bo Wei = A level Grad
Zhihao = NOTHING?
Wait Kit = Easily Contented
Ding Zhong = Diploma Cert with meri.
Terrence = Happy go lucky.
Yee Jian = Look cute?
Seng Guan = Rich family?
Zi Jin = Donno him..

Anyway I jus wanna show that I'm the lousy person. It's really time to pick myself up le.

Today derrick said something that I totally agree..
"A GF that is to stick to you sometime make you feel pissed off."
Do you agreee?

Christopher
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Saw Someone blog.. He said he is having a very hectic life..
Actually I wanna a hectic life. Cause then i wun think of other staff.

Okay, a short post before I go to sleep.

This whole week we all the kennel-hand is like so tried
taking those new intake. Anyway the week is ending and next
week mark a new start again. We pick a few of them to join
us. One of them is Yee Jian, he's the one i choose and I really hope I never make a wrong choose. It seem that not only me but all other kennel-hand like him alot too. haha..

Thought been in my mind. I was trying to sort out some feeling.
Many things have happened, mostly unhappy incident. Hope tmr will be better.

Christopher is freaking tired. He wants a holiday away from every thing.
Everyone.

Christopher
I going to disappear for a day.
Dun ask why.
I just wanna break.
Don't look for me.

Tears fill in my eyes now.
but does anyone know?

I wanna a break.
Who can give me?

1st day of work on Feb'09..
See the color of my texts u should be able to guess my mood..
Yea, It's blue. Monday blue..

Sat went club with melvin.. At PLAY!.. Saw the usual people and
melvin fren, Ethan and his bf(Andrew) and Jason.. Drink 2 shot of tequlia and a drink from andy that is nice.. haha..
Thanks Andy..
Forget take picture that nice.. was happily dancing alway.. haha.

Today morning, Inspection as usual.. so scare will fail cos my hair so long but I pass the inspection =D After that went for daily briefing then to kennl area do usual staff..
Was waiting for new intake whole day but they came very late so will only see them tomorrow.. Edison just now called me around 11 plus.. i thought wat thing.. then is wan me help him "look after" his fren .. Sian.. Edison don't forget ur promise ar..

This few week many thought..
1) I really wan to take O level but till now i still don;t know where to start.. I only have starting reading story book hoping will inprove english slowly. There is still math, geog, etc.. Stress..

2) MonEY! No matter how much monry i got. It seem forever not enough.. People say when u are poor you will learn how to mange your ficance better but it doesn't seem working on me.. I'm Poor now but I don't ever learn from my lesson of not saving money will let me end up taking money from mummy.. Someone teach me how to save up?

3) Health.. Seriously speaking.. I'm finding my health getting wrose.. Starting I though i only not enough sleep.. but now it seem not to be the case. I don't wanna go for any check up cos I think i'm fine but my health think another way.. Anyway I think I should be fine..

Many things in my mind worry about.. It all seem endless of worrying.. Normal children have up to the age of 18 not worrying bout anything but for me, since i work when i'm 14 my mum has keep nagging bout money problem and house loan.. I'm like so tired with all this burden..


When Can I Leave All This?

When I'm died perharp ?

Christopher
Signing Off.

Cryin doesn't seem to help..

Wanna write my blog but then hor.. with 3 msn window on.. I like no time lei..
hmmm..........

Today let me talk bout today.
First day back in camp, did the normal routine (Wash Kennel and Picking up "BOMB").
In the afternoon we went to 2 sub-bases to have inspection.
After that went to buy KFC eat.. haha..

Today baby injured his finger.. He really super not careful lo, when morning i still just msg him to be careful.. aiyo.. I had been sick recently too.. Cos of the wisdom tooth.. hai.. it's making my left side brain very painful..

Chris (Lazy write le.. )

Happy Lunar New Year!!

It's the new year again..
Let me talk bout my new year..

1st day == Went to grandma house, sit there like status of Liberty.. One word SIAN
2nd == Morning meet baby go AMK hub watch All's Well End's well.. Very funny.. haha.
Thursday we going watch wedding game..
Friday= D&D..
Sat == PLAY! haha..but b4 that going to have dinner with baby ajs fren..

Chris
Short and sweet.. haha

Happy new year people.. haha

Today is first day of lunar new year..
jus now was at grandma house eating.. alot people came..

Got 1 good news.. I'm attach.. haha..
Let me intro my baby..
Melvin Tay
18
SP
Super cute.. haha..
muack..


Melvin: Love u baby!

wow.. 18 days never blog le wor..
seem like only ytd never blog..
Okay.. let me recap..

WARNING!!! This is a very long and no pics post..

3 JAn.. Meet Chick and other ITE fren.. when for dinner and movie.. Watch College at PS.. M18.. Argh.. haha

6 Jan.. Meet Vintage.. A freak.. keep wna to Fuck me. Argh..

10 Jan.. PAID DAY.. haha.. Go out with Joe bought 1 button shirt 1 vest and a white berm..

12 Jan.. Clear EHO.. BTT.. I PASSED.. haha... then paid tv licence..

15 Collected my phone cos i drop on the floor last week screen broken.. haha..

16 JAn.. Kennel hand outing.. when to The Cathay to eat then went to Party world to sing .. haha..
went home at 1 am..

Yesterday went to do FTT pratice.. thought very diffi but.. seem easy for me.. anyway.. i going to book the next pratice after CNy..

Today.. Worse of ALL... Morning wake up thoat very pain.. then drink lots of water hoping it will recover.. and it did .. haha
after that when to CPP to pass chairman her phone.. * thanks for lending it to me.. * then went home to change then went bishan to meet roseline.. so happy can see her.. haha..

now at home rot.. haha

Christopher..

Missing you..... E _ _ _ _ _ _

Went to count down with messy yesterday at marina.. Was very happy that I can spend my New year first moment with him but for him I think he would rather spend it with _ _ if can.. We went to watch "Bedtime Stories." show ended at 4.30am.. then I took NR6 home as got to rush to work.. while he wait for NR7.. Something happened in-between but I think I'm not going to talk bout it.. Anyway that's how my NYE was..

2008.. .
A year full of things happened..
Ended working in McD in March this year cos of NS..
Enlisted to SPF in march 12.. Broke up with andy around tat week too..
This year was a real bad one for me. I been though a lot but grow up abit.
I hurt many i know.. I'm sorri.. maybe becos tat i hurt u all.. I'm all single now.
Stead with junior for 2month after andy.. that's all i haf. Although there is alot of other which is super short like 1 day to 1 week.. I know they are all toying with me . but I still cry after every relationship end. I dun know why but i only know that every end relationship is like a scar in my heart. No matter what it had all end. nw I only hope a good 2009.

2009 had arrived.....
New Year = New Hope..
I dare to haf hope cos i scare of being hurt. I put in my heart in relationship everytime but end up hurting.

On 1st of the year. you guy know what i'm doing?









Crying alone in bed.









Christopher.