Bogging again.

Today told DZ my secret trusting that he will keep it to himself .
Anyway I didn't tell him the whole true. Sorry.

HE told me something bout someone in the camp that I really cannot believe it.
Seem like in this world everyone is stabbing one another but what's the point.
Does hurting each other make them grow up faster ?

Christopher must try to do this.
DON"T BITCH OTHER AT THEIR BACK. DON'T HELP NVM, DON'T ADD OIL TO FIRE.

Okay I guess I did it again..
I pissed Yee Jian Off and it's really my fault.
All my big mouth. I will nv believe love at first sight again le.
I hurt Melvin and Yee jian now. I'm a jerk. I'm not fit to wear the ring mel gave.
I'm a fucking sucker.

Really don't know what the point of me living.
Make mum spend more money?
Make more people get hurt?
Make my friend hate me?

ROAR~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I need a break of destress method.

If I'm working in Mac I still can MIA. But now in ns. MIA = AWOL.

Chris. Sux

Another week is almost passing..
Back in my rm again blogging.
I think I just pissed Yee Jian And Edison off..
hais.. Just wat the hell I did..
CHRISTOHPER FUCK OFF..

This few week been trouble by this staff..
-FTT ( Completed.. PASSED.. haha)
-How to make Yee jian better in doing kennel hand work.
-How to pleased Edison..
-STOP BITCHING...

Headache now.. Cos of the Tooth.. Argh..

Need a fren by my side, Turned around but I see no one.

God, maybe it's time to take me by ur side?

Chris. Tired

Another day I stay at home SLEEPING.. Dunno why keep feeling very tired nowsaday..
Maybe because of the medicine..

Tmr is monday.. MONDAY BLUE AGAIN.. hais.. TIRED..
How I hope NS life will end fast.. haha...
MARCH 2010.. My Happiest MONTH.. haha..

My tooth is still hurting..

dunno wat to say le.. haha..

bb

CHristopher (Ajs)

Okay ytd was a bad day for me that's why didn't blog.
I was in huge pain that I went to SGH A&E in the midnight with Ain..
Then the doctor gave me pain killer that ease my pain. Anyway I'm told to go see a dentist asap and I shall go on this tuesday..

Just now I went to SSDC to take the trial test for FTT .. Guess how much I got?
49/50.. I also dun believe.. =D I thought my eyesight got problem.. haha

Okay let me post the Thursday night photo..

In camp now ... Ytd stayed over night in camp.
Almost all kennel hand stayed other then Bo Wei, Seng Guan and Zhi jing.
It quite enjoying for the whole night..
I shall post the photo I took later tonight as now i'm in camp..

Viewing the pass entires i make..
99% UNhappy things..
1% Abit happy.

Wat can be worse then my life?

Life Been Lost for me this year.

Really dunno what I should do.

Many promise I make but not able to fulfill.
-Wait for edison
-last long with mel
-Take O level.

I'm such a lier.

Someone can wake me up?

Now in my mind. Only U. YJ. If u tell me u dun wan me go Club. I will nv go again.

Fucker

Christohper is sad + emo = moodless..

Been a boring day .
Went to grandma house for awhile.
help mum bought 4D
Came back home slack..
Was waiting for YJ msg..
but he nv msg ..

I think I can guess the answer...
sorry

hmmm... Somthing happened today.. Morning was abit emo..
then went to kennel area to be quick Begi..
Then a received a msg that write..
"Hubby where are you?"
First thing come in my mind: Am I seeing things?
then i slowly come to my sense that it's really jian calling me hubby..
Then i was trying to think back and see when did we start to be together..
then I recall nothing bout it.. So I'm like lost.. but I'm happy. haha.
Stupid me..

Anyway work was as usual.. Other then derrick tell me something that wanted my life..
"You and terence draw lots see who go APB" I feel like dying that moment lol..
Lucky Terence say he will tell derrick he wan go..


Anyway terence passed his FTT le.. Congrat.. Mines on 24 FEb.. Wish me luck men..

1st reason that I like jian is..
He is honest in what he tell me.

Chistopher ..

part 2..
Was in talking on the phone thats why I stop bloggin awhile..

Anyway was saying bout coming back.
Tonight is the last night Xu Zhihao is working as kennel hand..
Tomorrow onward, it's Christohper working as kennel hand.
No more mistake shall be make, even if it takes me to learn everything again.
I'm not longer the old bird in kennel hand as I shall refresh everything I learn and teach my trainee well..

CHRISTOHPER ROXs....

Next things.. FAmily..

- Christopher will not take money from grandma for now on.
- Christopher will not take more then $40 from mum every month..
- Christopher must learn how to save...
- Christopher must grow up.

TMR IS THE DAY........................

I'm Single again..
This time I initial the break up.
Nvm shall not said further in that..

Today something happened which make me stop and really think..
First time JX told me off.. =(
I'm not angry nor am i sad.. I'm just piss off with my own working style..
Christopher the one that can manage 40 crew on floor can't do work well.
I DON'T BELIEVE IT MAN..
It's time to wake the old christopher up
The leader in sch and manager in Mac..

to be .........

Today was a short easy day for me..

Wake up at 11am.. Watch tv till 1pm..
went to grandma house till 2pm..
went to hg mall repair dad's watch..
reach home at 3pm.. watch tv till fall asleep..
wake up at 7 watch tv again..
then now..
ONLINE..
haha

Then now chatting in msn..
Suddenly had this thought in mind..
BF is not a must .. but BFF is a must..


Christopher

Another day have pass again..
Every was normal. New intake follow us for the last day as they are going to join team to do base guard and go to sub-bases. 3 of them join kennel hand. Yee Jian, Seng Guan and Zi jin.

Today I found out something. Every kennel hand got something they are proud of. but not me.
Let's see..
Jing Xiang = The most experienced kennel hand.
Wei Wei = Super-star
Bo Wei = A level Grad
Zhihao = NOTHING?
Wait Kit = Easily Contented
Ding Zhong = Diploma Cert with meri.
Terrence = Happy go lucky.
Yee Jian = Look cute?
Seng Guan = Rich family?
Zi Jin = Donno him..

Anyway I jus wanna show that I'm the lousy person. It's really time to pick myself up le.

Today derrick said something that I totally agree..
"A GF that is to stick to you sometime make you feel pissed off."
Do you agreee?

Christopher
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Saw Someone blog.. He said he is having a very hectic life..
Actually I wanna a hectic life. Cause then i wun think of other staff.

Okay, a short post before I go to sleep.

This whole week we all the kennel-hand is like so tried
taking those new intake. Anyway the week is ending and next
week mark a new start again. We pick a few of them to join
us. One of them is Yee Jian, he's the one i choose and I really hope I never make a wrong choose. It seem that not only me but all other kennel-hand like him alot too. haha..

Thought been in my mind. I was trying to sort out some feeling.
Many things have happened, mostly unhappy incident. Hope tmr will be better.

Christopher is freaking tired. He wants a holiday away from every thing.
Everyone.

Christopher
I going to disappear for a day.
Dun ask why.
I just wanna break.
Don't look for me.

Tears fill in my eyes now.
but does anyone know?

I wanna a break.
Who can give me?

1st day of work on Feb'09..
See the color of my texts u should be able to guess my mood..
Yea, It's blue. Monday blue..

Sat went club with melvin.. At PLAY!.. Saw the usual people and
melvin fren, Ethan and his bf(Andrew) and Jason.. Drink 2 shot of tequlia and a drink from andy that is nice.. haha..
Thanks Andy..
Forget take picture that nice.. was happily dancing alway.. haha.

Today morning, Inspection as usual.. so scare will fail cos my hair so long but I pass the inspection =D After that went for daily briefing then to kennl area do usual staff..
Was waiting for new intake whole day but they came very late so will only see them tomorrow.. Edison just now called me around 11 plus.. i thought wat thing.. then is wan me help him "look after" his fren .. Sian.. Edison don't forget ur promise ar..

This few week many thought..
1) I really wan to take O level but till now i still don;t know where to start.. I only have starting reading story book hoping will inprove english slowly. There is still math, geog, etc.. Stress..

2) MonEY! No matter how much monry i got. It seem forever not enough.. People say when u are poor you will learn how to mange your ficance better but it doesn't seem working on me.. I'm Poor now but I don't ever learn from my lesson of not saving money will let me end up taking money from mummy.. Someone teach me how to save up?

3) Health.. Seriously speaking.. I'm finding my health getting wrose.. Starting I though i only not enough sleep.. but now it seem not to be the case. I don't wanna go for any check up cos I think i'm fine but my health think another way.. Anyway I think I should be fine..

Many things in my mind worry about.. It all seem endless of worrying.. Normal children have up to the age of 18 not worrying bout anything but for me, since i work when i'm 14 my mum has keep nagging bout money problem and house loan.. I'm like so tired with all this burden..


When Can I Leave All This?

When I'm died perharp ?

Christopher
Signing Off.

Cryin doesn't seem to help..