I got bitten by dogs..

Hi guys,
I'm back from hospital 3 days for now. Was admitted there due to dog's bite on my right arm and lower lips. I went though 3 surgery and stay for 1 week in there.. It's a lifetime expericese I guess..

Now i'm full of wounds and a broken lower lip. Using one hand to type in the blog. =)

Baby broke up with the other guys le.. He's my only now JUNIOR BELONG TO CHRISTOPHER NOW!!!! I love u baby..

Althoght I got bitten by the dogs, I didn't cry or feel sad. Only few thing went in my mind that time.
1) Is Eschier going to get kill cos he bite me?
2) I got bitten on my lips, is baby going to leave me.
3) Will my parent bother bout me.

That's all can think of that time. I didn't really care if i will died. cos if i'm died I think on one will care.. Haha.. ( but i know baby will care)

Now, I'm going to be on long mc till Nov. After that I maybe going to transport dept. I miss kennel hand. If given a choice will go back. but my parent just dun allow. Even baby also wun allow de i think..

K, i going to rest now le.
Night people..

*My hand starting to hurt le .

I'm really sad. Baby went to his house last night.

I cry whole night morning went to work abit eyes pain.

never eat anything cos dun feel like..

Finish work when reach YCK station baby msg me then I eat a bread

baby i tired very hard not to cry le.. but can't sorry. Baby i really love u .

I really hope one day u will be mine only. baby i'm sorry, i know i'm selfish.

Ok here's 1 of the memories..

ps: Baby i really miss you. Don't ever leave me. I will die.

Feeling

Don't really feel good this few day , or should I said month.. Whatever..

Problem keep coming but i asked for it i guess.

1) Singtel bill come out to be $170... WTH.

2) M1 Bill Overdue by $100.. (Red letter received)

3) Owe Leo's $250.. ( But he give me till I'm ok to pay up..)

Things in my mind..

1) Leo's going to enlisted maybe I would get to see him that often then cannot chat le/

2) Trying very hard to cope with the kennel hand ways of doing things..

( I guess I'm doing quite well in this.. =))

3) Meeting Baby tmr, worry that he will walk out on me..

4) Baby's is tire after school everytime xin hao pain to hear him..

5) Baby ______________________________

100% of my mind I think 70% Baby's, 10% Leo's, 10% Work's, 5% family. The 5% left. Useless

Ok, I shall start talking bout my life last few day..

Monday: Got ill, High fever 39 degree.. hai..

Tuesday - Thursday(Today : WORKING WORKING WORKING..

No big new but found out that _ _ _ _ _ _ was a Ajs too.. haha..

Then e newspaper nowsaday keep reporting things bout gay.. aiyo..

O ya, Sat went out with Sharon and kathay.. here's the pic.. only abit..

Ok going to do other staff le..

Flying off.
Christopher

Just 3 day n our ltr. He said " i think we btter not continue our relationship cause you and me never like happy at all".. Just 3 day he said that le.. I dunno wat to said.. Why is this keep happened to me? Junior, you make me feel in love with u. now u said all this. Is like how my ex, andy, treated me you know? Am I REALLY THAT BAD THAT YOU NAD ANDY HAVE TO TOY WITH ME AND DUMP ME? TELL ME!!!!!!!!!! GOD! I had no longer the strenght to carry on. Let me off.. IF u want, just take me to heaven to be by your side. This lifetime had nothing for me to stay on.

Saw this in one of my friend blog. this is how I feel completly..


""I find it better to stay at home, doing my own stuffs,
rarther than to get in touch with the social circle.
so much things are happening, and so lil time to get over with.
i hate this, i do.
i don't sound emotional, neither am i upset.
i just need a space to let out wht's in me.
neither do i need any sympathy, so let me rant for all i want to.
nowadays, i hardly feel any dejection, nor am i depressed over certain stuffs.
yes, however, this time round, i feel otherwise.
let this be over soon, alright?
i will be strong.""

The last line, i will be strong.. I dun know will it happen to me .. cos i dun think i'm strong.
My power to live had been use up thinking bout my family, friend and money problem. Now with more problem coming I just hope someone is there to stay by my side. Maybe if cc will to be around she will understand. Why am i talking bout her? I'm must be crazy.. (XU ZHIHAO SHOULD NEVER HURT CC AGAIN!)

** He message me. He comfirm dump me now.. Wahaha.. I'm single .. again.

Christopher
Fully in coffin.

Christopher is in love.. I think

That's the nick of my msn.. refering to my dar junior..( actually the whole nick is bout him la)
Hai.. Stead with him two day then I like really crazy le... ROAR!!!!!!
Monday, he message me whole day so I feel he really care alot bout me..
Today, he never message me more then 5 message cos he was in sch doing things..
then i got angry.. I'm that petty man.. now then i know.. although I know sch very importent but I still cant make myself not to think wat he is doing.. hai.. I'm such a Fucker right..

Slap my own face man..

*** Although now i have him but never meet him before make me feel so un-confidence of myself and keep thinking that he will run away. To tell u guy the true, for the last two night I have been dreaming of him dumping me and left. I feel so sad like when andy left me. I hate tat feeling. If can I would rather not be awake ever ever again.

Today is the final dog obdience test. All pass.. Congrats to all..
Then for reward I open the can food bernard bought for eschier to share with other dogs..
but then didn't know that andy would go and tell him. then he look unhappy now.. hai..
I'm damm tire of all this things le.. Last time in Mac I must take care of all crew internal affair. Now I must watch out of people in Police in case anything happened i can cover myself...
I hate this type of feeling.. If can, let me stay at Sec school forever man.. I hate my working life..

I'm very tired, Emotionally & Physically. I need junior. Where is all the hug and kisses u promise.
Dar, I'm really tired. How i hope u will be with me everyday. But i know i'm dreaming..

Christopher
Lying in the coffin...