I'm so tired.. Life so unfair to me..
Give me a poor family, nt very good looking face, No childhood, parent no fighting day in day out.

People may think that I very good life.. but coming to it.. Do I?
-Went to a primary sch that dun really care or push me to study and parent also dun bother.
end up in EM3.
-Sec sch at least gt Miss Goh to guide me round. Make me a top in the cohort of NT. but N level result never get to my target. got 5th position. Some people may said it's good but to me. It's very lousy. I wan to be 1st, I work so hard for it yet I fail. WTH.
-ITE = NO heart in study at all. I hate it. oNly know how to PLAY and PLAY .
-McDonald's, Although I'm proud to work in Mac as a Manager, but in real life. People think that Mac Manager is lousy de.. I work my way up the rank but what I get? Angry from my fren cos they came in early then me but nv promote first. but i work for it.

Thought out my life I have been blaming myself for all this and think that I'm jus bad luck.

I'm not good in word but I only know. I wanna change. I wanna to take back what I have lost.

Christohper Koh
One ID nw. AJS.

1 week nv update, not because my internet down but jus because that...
I'm too tired and lazy to do it.. and since on one is reading..

Anyway let me recap my Bad life of last one week first.
Monday to Thursday = Work as normal. End at 4.30pm go home. = NOLIFE!

Friday = Strait Time reporter coming. wash kennel fast fast then waited for them for 1 hour with the dog .. In the end... NV COME OVER TO KENNEL AREA! Knn.. Waste my time.. make me gastric pain..

Sat = Not working. Went to Chinatown find mama take money then went to bugis buy berm and then call Jerlyn to meet me in town.. then bought a belt in far east 77th street b4 going back to HG for dinner with her and joanna.

At night, meet wellness and Jojo to go dwn to PLAY.. When reach maxwell market.. Wellness and Jojo is like PR-ing around then I like very sian.. After that wellness sign me in and then I went in to find kenneth.. he was with his fren so I after while then go find wellness and slack abit.. after that.. MR Brandon came and start getting very close with me (when it's out first time meeting..) Then tat baoxian also very bad hide behind him then never say hi to me.. kanna sai.. Argh..
Went back round 2.30am.. cos next day still working.. TIRED..

SUNDAY= Went to work in the morning.. as usual, DZ late and i waiting at MRT stating.. then YS late. hais.. anyway today benard also got come today.. haha. ok then wash finish then go home.. after that... I went to grand ma hse and waited for so people to come.. in the end. I kanna bluff again.. (WHY EVERYBODY LIKE TO BLUFF ME KNNBCCB) After waiting for 1 hour I left.. back in home and sleeping..

Christopher.

I'm Fucking tired nw.. but can't get to sleep at all.. dun understand why.. Edison, you said will accompany me chat de. But you cheated me two days le. Argh.

Many things in my mind nw but I just don't know how to sort out OR maybe is because I don't wanna sort out.
Santa ar santa.. I really hope u can help me fulfill my wish..

Coming weekend i wan go PLAY. Anyone wan bring me in? hais.

I hate myself for being so idiot.
I hate myself for not being loveable
I hate myself for not being able to dun love you
I hate myself for keeping you in my mind every sec.
I hate myself for being such a loser

ARGH... Iwanna a de-stress !!!!!!!!!!!! Bursting up soon.

Sob.

Christohper

Extracted from Noel's blog.

DEAR SANTA,

I KNOW I HAVE NOT BEEN A VERY GOOD BOY, ESPECIALLY THIS YEAR.
I'VE HURT MYSELF, HURT OTHERS, CAUSING PAIN & GRIEVES.

CHRISTMAS IS APPROACHING. A DAY FOR SINGLES TO FEEL LONELY.
I KNOW I DO NOT DESERVE HAPPINESS, MAYBE NOT NOW, MAYBE NOT FOREVER,
BUT I DO WISH, & I PRAY, THAT YOU CAN BE KIND ENOUGH TO FORGIVE ME & SEND SOMEONE, SOMEONE WHO CARES, TRULY CARES, TO ME.

A PERSON WHO DOESN'T MIND MY FLAWS NOR MY LOOKS.
A PERSON WHO CAN ACCOMPANY ME THROUGH LONELY NIGHTS.
A PERSON WHO WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME WHEN I'M DOWN.
A PERSON WHO IS THERE WHEN I NEED ONE.
A PERSON WHO CAN SHARE THE JOYS & SORROWS TOGETHER.
A PERSON WHO IS MY VERY OWN.

=)

SANTA... PLEASE?


SIGN OFF.. WITH HOPE,

CHRISTOPHER XU ZHIHAO

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Very long didn't blog . Let recap abit of my life last few day..

Monday to thursday = NO LIFE DAY! Go camp at 8AM leave at 4.30PM. That's all.. haha

Friday= Went to PLAY with edison.. actually dun wanna go de cos need to play for the entrance.. But lucky got da joe help bring us in.. haha THKS JOE. Saw wellness and JOJO at maxwell market while waiting for edison with joe.. Talk abit.. went in that time saw imran at the door..Went to E-bar to look for andy as he is there.. then saw kenneth there too. with new boiboi.. haha. . jkjk after go in PLAY. haha Club till 3am light on then leave le. after that we went to take bus home. O ya and i got to know one more person. warran. edison fren..

Sat= Morning went to work.. Me and WeiX2 like zombie like that cos both never really slp.. He is becos he is no night shift me is I go PLAY.. haha. Wash very slowly untill 11pm till finish haha.. After that went home and slp le.. at night actually wan go PLAY. But nobody pei.. then andy is there with his dear then sure wun bother with me de.. hai..

Sunday = ToDAy.. Worse of all.. NEVER GO OUT AT ALL.. At home slp all day.. Edison never reply me at all.. ARgh.. haha I know he is working la.. jus trying to nag nag abit.. Cos I'm DAMM BORED>>>> =3

CHRISTOPHER
I WANNA FLY..

I feel that I like no bf will died now.
Christopher, wake up la.. Stop being so cheap!!!

I found out something today. I FORGOT HOW TO SMILE?!
Was trying to smile whole day but all seem so plastic.
Once people get older they tend to forget alot of simple things.
How to Smile?
How to cry?

I'm really very tired.
Thought that kenneth will be a nice shoulder to lie on. but.. things alway goes again my wish.
Actually God, I only have simple wish. A nice bf who care bout me and love me for who I am.

Where can I find the right guy.. Hate myself for being ugly. Argh

My hearts broken by kenneth. Going to rest. Dun look for me.

Lot's of thought today.

1. Relationship.
-Kevin is making me lost. Here he treat me like his stead, there he dun wan to be my bf. Is he trying to play with me? I dunno. I just hope not. My heart can't take it.

2.Ajs
-Kenneth said wan meet me today but in the end never meet . somemore is last min tell me cannot. hai..

3.Sports
-Today play some sport with them. Find that I really don't have childhood sia.. Can't even play a sport. kanna sai.. When people enjoying their childhood playing pokemon card, Play station and etc. Where am I? WORKING!! Freak lol.. Hate my parent lol. A person only have once childhood yet they never give me a memoriable one. FU**...

4.Work (Camp)
-Derrick is back. Feel so odd.

5.Future.
-My plan for future seem impossible to complete. I need stress from people or pressure from people then I can work to the limit but they is no one to push me . hai.

I WANNA A BF. ANYONE WAN ME? IF U JIO ME. I WILL COMFIRM ACCPECT. HAI.

CHRIS

Blog there like so strange.. Many thing I wanna but cannot said cos due to it's a open blog to public
if any officer see then I will have a hard time to explain le.. Hai..

Jus now was talking to edison.. He ask me to turn str8.. sian.. everybody seem to love to make me turn here turn there ar.. I look like toy ma? hai..

Was smsing with Kelvin for the last few day..How to say lei.. I'm really putting my heart into wooing him but I'm just scare that I will get rejected or got cheat by him.. hai.. I sound very useless hor.. hai. How I hope that he won't reject me when I ask the question. I think I meeting him on thursday or friday.. I will ask the question at that time then.. Wish me luck K.

Laptop is really going to crush anytime from now le.. Screen spoilt, USB port spoilt, Batt spoilt.. I thought like that already is very bad le. but who knows that now the Internet also got problem.. althought I know my life is not as bad as some other but sometime I really hope I can improve my life a little bit better.

Chris ( Someone who don't who he him self should be or want to be)

I WANNA GO CLUBBING!!!
I WAN TO DE-STRESS!!
I WAN MONEY!!!
I WAN BF!!!
I WAN U!!!

Got very bad feeling. Dunno is sad or unhappy.
Bad thing always come to me seem like I'm born to be the World most unlucky.
Just now went to take BTT, i was so confidence that I will pass but in the end. Na bei. Still fail..
I confirm I got pass de lol.. If i take again still fail mean the system got problem.

Ytd went for SOC movie day at Suntec, Shawn drove us there and on the way there we meet a small accident. Shall not go deeper in it. After the movie went to Marina Square and Far east plaza to shop with wai kit. Saw alot of nice things next pay shall go and buy.. Saw the crumple bag, only $98.. Yea.. Next salary out I shall go buy.

Life been very bad for me. Failing BTT, singlehood, looks not good, bill after bill to paid, mum nagging bout bill that she paid, dad said I stupid to faill BTT 2 time(Kanna sai, he then useless.), Wanted to study diploma but keep worrying bout the fees and some other some things..

Nothing good had happened to me since breaking up with Junior cos I consider the days with him was my happiest monent in this year. This year is ending yet nothing good has happened to me. Seem like this is not my year this year. Hope next year will be better.

Goal for next year:
1) Get the Driving License
2) Not having to spend next year birthday alone as it's 21st birthday.


I
am
fucking
tired
but
does
anyone
ever
bother
or
care?

I'm sick. Actually is haven recover. I think it's because of the Wisdom tooth.
Although it's very painful but I'm not going to see a doctor.. I'm STUBBORN. =P

Today whole day at home sleep as too tired after one whole week of working AND
most importantly, NO BODY ASK ME OUT. Sad right? Anyway it's ok.. Cause I'm used to it.

My back hurt now + my fever is still not going down.. OMG.. how long more can I live man..

Christopher

I only wan some care and concern from people. Is it that difficult? I don't understand really. Maybe I'm not good. God, all i'm asking for is a good guy that love me for who I am. Is it asking too much ? It not why not you kill me. Since Eschier is gone, I see no point of living.

It's going to be a real short post cos going to watch the tv show..
Re-cap
-Went to MP to take blood for 6 new dog
-Jasper pee on my leg.. Argh
-Eswari saw her 1st dog grave so sad... make me think of eschier

That's all ...
O ya also..

Sorry Andy.. I think I done wrong things again.. Call me when u not angry K..

**EDITED**
Sorry reader, ( i mean andy and gene) my blog is very boring de.. =)


Life getting more and more boring nowsaday lol..
Everyday go work at 8am, end at 4.30pm. Life seem empty.
Promise that I will study for O level but ill now I still dunno where to start..
I think I will start after meeting Miss Goh next month..

Think I WANTED very much..
1) CRUMPLES Bag.. I have been saying it for a long time hope can buy it real soon.
2)White Jean and White Belt.. For clubbing use i think... and CNY next year can wear..
3) NUM Shirt and Shoe..

ARGH.. many things i wan but not enough money to buy.. No matter what I shall pass my IPPT and get my Cpl and the $70.. Wai Kit.. Help ME!!!

O ya, Andy had post up the photo that we took in sentosa.. **www.andywangzi.blogspot.com**


Now Joe calling me talking bout yen again.. I really dunno how to help.. Hai..


Ytd in IRC u all guess who I get to know? JOJO!! haha.. didn't realise it was him untill he add me in msn.. OMG.. F<span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">Sorry reader, ( i mean andy and gene) my blog is very boring de.. =)<br /><br /><br />Life getting more and more boring nowsaday lol..<br />Everyday go work at 8am, end at 4.30pm. Life seem empty.<br />Promise that I will study for O level but ill now I still dunno where to start..<br />I think I will start after meeting Miss Goh next month..<br /><br />Think I WANTED very much..<br />1) CRUMPLES Bag.. I have been saying it for a long time hope can buy it real soon.<br />2)White Jean and White Belt.. For clubbing use i think... and CNY next year can wear..<br />3) NUM Shirt and Shoe..<br /><br />ARGH.. many things i wan but not enough money to buy.. No matter what I shall pass my IPPT and get my Cpl and the $70.. Wai Kit.. Help ME!!!<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);">O ya, Andy had post up the photo that we took in sentosa.. www.wangzi.blogspot.com<br /><br /><br /></span></span></span><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 204, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"><span style="font-weight: bold;">Now Joe calling me talking bout yen again.. I really dunno how to help.. Hai..<br /><br /><br />Ytd in IRC u all guess who I get to know? JOJO!! haha.. didn't realise it was him untill he add me in msn.. OMG.. First time talk to him so much in msn ytd.. haha.. Andy, if u going PLAY next month after 13 let me know k? I wan go.. haha..<br /><br /><br />Tmr going to review at NUH again.. Sian.. seem unless review..<br /><br /><br />Christopher<br /><br /></span></span></span></span><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"><br /><br /><br /></span></span>

I wanna a Laptop.. ARgh..

Okay I have come to a decision, I will take O level after National Service. Not for anyone else but myself this time round.

Ytd went to sentosa with andy and joe to sun tan.. In the end I seem not that tan.. Maybe I shall go agin next week or something.. Anyway It was fun in the day but sad in the night.. Cos I broke up with ben cos I know that he don't love me at all.. I rather now he hurt me then in the long ways to come.. anyway thks for letting me know that early.. Still frens yea. =) I have learn to pick up and let go in r/s now.. a quote from andy, "Nothing last forever in this Ajs world." I truely believe in it now.

Today was suppose to go for a movie with ben.. but cancel then I stay at home lol.. Later meeting joe for the show lace. Maybe after meeting him I will go library awhile.. Time to pick up the book and study hard. no point of wasting my time in r/s that wun last. Like Edison say, without relationship, we also wun die.

Anyway going off to packs my things le.. see ya people..

Zhihao

Let me re-cap my last few day before saying bout other matter..

19 Nov: Went o meet Ain at SK MRT at 4pm.. Then took a bus to SKSS to look for miss goh as it was raining.. Saw her in the room, at first I very shy don't dare go in scare she might forget who I am.. In the end she called my name.. So I went in.. She remeber everything bout me, even my brother.. She really a nice teacher.. She said that she might need help next year for some school program, so I'm like waiting for ain to see if she will be able to help.. If she on, I'm on..

20 Nov: Normal day... Went to camp.. Work.. slack..

21 Nov: Today is SOC famliy day at SK swimming pool.. I didn't go .. so i stay in base with YS and 2 new guy.. Eswari seem like forever playing mind game and that owen also.. damm stress..

Today.. Went to work with wei wei and tai kit today.. fun.. haha.. anyway then after work we went to Mcd eat.. Never talk to wei wei so much before sia.. After work reac h home.. Watch tv abit then went to slp as very tired..

Tomorrow andy wan go sentosa.. but I really got to go my grandma house. hai.. dunno how to reject him sia.. IF other guy I think i can reject fast.. But andy.. hai.. STRESS...

Life in a mess.. Maybe I need to go for couselling..

Christopher
Fucker

Hey.. Was looking at some web and saw this two person.. BOth andy u also know de.. =D

Click on the pics.. =)

People is monday blue.. I everyday also blue.. hais..
Alot of thing to said..

Some updates..
R/S : Broke up with Gadriel and reject all other people (Staying single for now first.)

Work : Still trying hard to join in to their cling, Weiwei starting to talk to me other all ok..

Family : Still the same.. Can't be bother bout me. Only Cousin Joey care.

Friend : Went to a BBQ in yesterday organized by McDonald's Manager. Meet alot of them.. Tomrrow going back to Secondary school to find teacher.. Saew yiling on bus yesterday too..


This few week was sad.. Monday (17 Nov) just went for review.. Most likely my finger now going to recover. Actually if never recover I also don't really bother, the one that really bother is my family cause they want to know if there is any money I will get from this injury. Hais.. Actually I hope to be gone then nobody will be trouble over my problem..

Just now while walking home I actually 2 time never saw the car coming towards me untill there hound me. Maybe if there never hound me I will be knock down by them already. I'm so upset by all this things that have happend. Really need sometime to cool myself down.

O ya.. Thanks gene for tagging.. I know myself this blog is very boring... =) Also thanks for letting me know there is still someone that care bout me.

Christopher
Needed a CHANGE!

Brithday

This year birthday was a okok.. Morning Joey bought me to eat at marian then night Shirley treat me to K boxs.. That's all for that day.. Worse is my parent dun rmb at all.. Hai... But today eswari they all bought a cake for me to celebrate my birthday, it really suprise me.. haha.. and really.. Thanks guys..

Meet gabriel on sunday, we walk the whole town area.. Nice talking to him.. Anyway he maybe going to break with shawn to be with me? haha.. Didn't know I was that good market. and while talking to him then I twas thinking about a topic again.. To go further study or not?

Actually this question been with me for a long time... For me, I want to study, the best untill uni but I know it's impossible course of the school fees and expenses needed to complete the study. secondlly is that my parent can hardly pay up the monthly bill and waiting for me to go work and hold up the family. I'm so stress up by this question this year.. Leo and garbiel and many other wanted me to countine study but given the status I am in now. I don't think I can. For now I shall just study on my own abit at a time then try to save some money to take O level.
( even my cousin is with a min O level cert now. Me? A Nitec cert. I can said, it's not enough to let u surive in this world)

Actually I also think before after ITE go Poly, as in who never think of it. But the true is, can i afford it? I dun think so. I should really go think thought this question in the reminder of this year and do a new year resolution soon..

Suggestion people? Should go study?

Wo hen lay le.

Christohper (Sorry I know on pics then very boring .. But this is my blog and it's a boring one I know)

Birthday wish list.. 1) Crumple Bag.. 2) Adidas Jacket.. 3) A boyfriend.. (haha) 4) Friend 5) Grow up ..

Just now went to the hospital for review..
Went I reach there, they said it's on the 17 not 7. there write wrongly.. WTF.. I took cab dwn leii..
angry..

What a birthday i going to have this year..
1) Junior dump me..
2)Kanna trick by hospital
3)Jeron angry with me

nothing good happening to me lol.. WTH.. I'm really bad with people handling skill .. hai..

Now this blog got 2 reader.. which mean I shall not write their bad things... haha
no la.. I also never write bout them before..
Anyway, Jeron jio me today le.. I rejected him.. Idiot right me. such a cute guy i reject.
then he sad and never talk to me le.. Sad lost one more friend

Never mind..

Thinking bout wat nick scold me.. I sort of think that I'm a fucking Idiot..
but nvm.. that dun change anything now..

Leo is pressing me for the debt le.. $270.. alot hor.. haha
play him back next weekend..

I'm feel so tired.. All I wan is a shoulder to lie on.. Tired..

Nick Tan SOCLDED ME half an hour . WTH
Jeron angry cause I never tell him what happened!!
(Sorry Jeron I don't mean to dun tell u. I scare u worry)

WTH .. ALL ANGRY WITH ME FUCK LA..
ALL MY FAULT. NOBODY CARE LA.
CHEE BYE

I GOING TO MAIN BI SI GUO LE

I'M A FUCKING SUCKING IDIOT
I'M ALSO A FREAKING FUCKER.

ARGH!!!!!!!we$%^&*()!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WAN DE-STRESS

1)Tag along with Shawn to SOC to fetch 132th intake..
2) Talk to DY bout my posting, he agreed to let me go back. I don't really feel happy. ( I think eswari can sense it.. and only she can i dunno why)
3) Sir teck will call mum on wed. Hope she dun last min change her mind.
4) A show on tv got me asking myself if I can be like that grandmother. "Be content with hat she has".
5) LAst thing of the day, What I really want in life. What's my future?
-O level?
-Higher Nitec
-Diploma?

Money Is a problem to me.
ANd my last time grade is bad so I dun think school will give me money to study.

Christopher ( not a good or fully happy day from the day I got bitten.. Thanks kw for making me smile today for the first time from my heart. Thanks buddy)

Farewell..

Thing happened round me this few day..
1) Been in IRC last few day.. seem like going to get in trouble with people le..
2) Junior break with me.
3) Wei Xiang getting me crazy.. Today fight with him.. I think I better go meet him see wat he want.
4) Met brian today for movie.. A nice guy
5) Watch High school Musical 3 finally.. but not with junior.. Cry abit. miss his voice.
6) Jeron wanna jio me I think. And I dun know how to reject. I'm a idiot.
7) NS staff still not settle.. they still haven tell me where I going to.. Tmr must go see DY
8) Ez-link card haven go do..
9) Bill after bill coming after me..

God.. I'm like in a deep deep shit ar.. Last time I still got baby to listen to me.. Now, I'm all alone. What is going on men.. Jeron may be a nice guy but the feel with him just dun seem right.. Relationship and camp staff all in a mess.. Will I be able to clear all mess by year end.. ?
Someone tell me what to do can? I'm so damm FREAKING OUT SOON!!!

Freaking hell..
Christopher update again soon.

Lot's of things happened. I going to cut all short short cos i abit drunk and head pain pain le ..

Camp:
ALL the same. Everyday walk around, slack at transport. damm boring la.. Hate going to base now.
What a life am I leading in ns man.

Friend:
Meet up with andy last sat to go someplace..
Monday I meet joe to go Paragon to the m1 shop there cause he wan to return the Vodaphone.
after that when to far east meet jeslin. talk alot. joe was quite pissed off. after that meet yen then go back together. ( Joe, yen is sad can u see? )

Relationship:
Baby this few day acted strangely so I asked him to day wat happened is there something wrong or he had another guy outside? He said his mum forbid us to be together. I can sense his mum is more importent then me. So I really dunno how it will turn out. I hated this life.

Life in a mess. What the hell.

CHRISTOPHER IS A FOOL + FREAK + FUCKER = MOTHER FUCKING IDIOT!!!!

Yesterday: Went out with Andy to buy shoe. Meet him at City Link mall then went to Heeren and Taka then cine . he bought his shoe as taka and we had our dinner at cine b1 the Japanese restaurant. After awhile weihao came.. so after the meal andy went smoking and I went off cause since he got people pei le then don't need me pei be i think. Actually he ask me pei him go PLAY! but i didn't want to go as I was injury and also because with my look i will be a idiot there.
Sorry andy.. Next time when my face look better i will go down with u. =)

Today: Slack at home whole day as got no plan at all. Junior went to his grandparent house so I'm all alone.. Actually thought andy will like call and chat with me( I dunno wat i have this thinking.. I'm crazy i guess) but he didn't. Was on the phone with baby just now, was talking bout some topic but dunno how we got in to the topic of my look. then I asked him " If my face didn't recover after the sugery this month end will he still love me?" He gave me a answer "Dunno". I was in shock. No matter how hard he explain I feel just unwell. I didn't know how to explain it. So we hung up. I really am worry. Am I just someone that will get dump by people all the time? I dunno to to think well now. Someone maybe can enlighen me?

Wat the hell is going on. Tell me. Is look raelly that importent?

HAte myself.

Going to kill myself if I can man.
Christopher

Updates

Time to update my life this week..

Monday: Went to McDonald's CPP to visit the auntie, but not all working only saw kim, rohan and sow chun.. Karine let me in to have a "store tour". McD had indeed change alot since I last step in it on 10 March 08..Trust me guys, the promise I make, I will be back to work with u guys again. ( I wanted to work at McD was not because of the paid cos the don't paid high but I going back there to work cause of the passion in it. I have ketchup in my vein I guess . =)) During the night went to take BTT. I failed. For the very first time I tail a test in life.. maybe because that I never study hard ba. But reassure I will be back taking it.. =)

Tuesday - today: all the way at home other then going to the NTUC below I never went out at all.. So guai ar.. haha.

Every since monday never see baby le.. I miss baby.. hai.. anyway I will be back in base tmr for work le. I really dunno if I can go back to Kennelhand..

Going off le.. Blog again other time..
Christopher
-K9 Assistant Paravet
-Ex- McDonald's Floor Manager that do 2nd ass job =P
-1st Aider

Pics updating..

This was taken in my bunk ion POP day..

Junior

I had a fight with him.. He's was my best friend LEO SIM..

I miss the Old McDonald's Compass Point cos it holds all my memories of McD Life.

Hospital Food.. Look nice but ... =)

They poke 3 time at 3 different place on my hand...

My lovely Dog.. Eschier.. Although u bite me. I still love u..

Christohper w xiiang ( My lovely cousin)

Christopher w my nephew..

The injury done by eschier

And the injury on my lips..

Clearing.............

Went out with baby today to watch movie actually him gor coming but in the end never come.. But never mind so went to watch "House Bunny". Very nice show I love it man.. Anyone watching again ask me along k.. haha... Anyway then after movie we went to eat at long john after that went home.

Just now was thinking what to buy for shirley cos it's her birthday then we are such good sister so cannot don't buy her a gift ma.. haha.. So I think tmr i meeting Joe to go buy cause baby tmr need to go his grandma house.

Just Received my paid, total $660. Then I spend $300 paying all bill then also gave baby 30 buck. I so nice right.. haha.. Then I bought a perfume for myself.. I shall save $100 for paying back leo next month if not it will be very diffi for me to take out $270 one short.

My wound are recover, i going back to camp on 21st this month.. I'm so looking forward to this cause I'm damm bored at home everyday. Anyway I will be going back to kennelhand to see my cute doggi.. haha.. How i hope mum will let me buy a dog back home. I hope to take egon back once i get back. If can eschier too.. But if i really taking him back I think I will need time to build back the rapport. Tiger that time saw me like that he also feel back I think. But Sir, u are a great trainer so don't blame urself if u are. ( Now my wound are all recovering in progress just that my middles fingre still feel very numb. I just hope every thing's will be fine.. And my lip are damm small ok.. haha)

I have no plan for now till next year. Now that I clear the phone bill then next month clear Leo's debt I will clear everything .. YA!! haha.. After so many month in debt I Zhong yu can clear all debt. haha.. After that I will try to pass my driving by next year new year so i can drive during that time.. haha.. That's my wish..

My birthday coming, 8 Nov... If anyone wanna buy gift for me.. GET MI A CRUMPLE SILNG BAG CAN? I was hoping to get it by dec.. haha.. But this is private blog so i think i will have to buy it myself.. haha.. never mind i will take it as buying a birthday gift for myself. haha

Baby ask me sleep now then I here blogging if he see sure will nag at me haha..

Anyway Last of all.. Thanks all friend for ur care and concern given to me went I was in hopsital and also all those gift tat was given by camp and Kennelhand.

And last last of all.. I just now went to see vincent blog and he was talking bout gays. then I find one line very true.

"Lesbian are ok, gays arent"

Don't u guy think that it's that true? What the diffierent with then when both are homosexual?

hai..

Christopher
Off I go.. haha

I'm sick now so is baby.. I have slight headache now, so is he..
I just remove my right arm bandage left only my palm bandage.

I didn't sleep last night till morning 6am. cos i miss baby so much every time close my eye
also see him.. then keep see him like very sick.. Baby is really very ill now cause the way he talk to me is very different then normal. First time he ask me to stop asking stupid question cause he is very painful in his head. I feel so useless cause I'm unable to help him in any ways.

Today message eswari and ask bout the ez-link card. I think i will get it done next week when she return to camp and fax over the NP299 report. Sorry to trouble you man es.

This few week stay at home all day long. damm bored and tired. People resting at home should feel more refresh, but not for my case. I getting more and more tired. Maybe is because I keep wasting time Maybe i should do something useful tmr onwards. maybe study bout pets and the treatment that can be use. Since I can't be a good kennel hand then I shall be a gd assistant to es next time.

Next week monday is my BTT. I have no confidence at all men. Due to this is the first time I'm taking a test without going to any class and all by self study. From pri till ite even police I also learn though lesson before test. First time I'm taking a test without confidence. I'm so lost man.

O ya, Ytd was the 1st month for me and baby. Baby I love u. although I can't pei u .

Feel like ending my life

I'm TIRED!!!!!!!!
Fucking tired over alot of staff.. Work, family & etc
Sometime I really feel very tired, feel like giving up everything.

Salary coming out this sat yet almost all I going to use to paid back the debt.
Singtel is rushing me for the payment and also i wan to pay Leo back soonest cos
he need the money to settle his family problem .( that's wat he said)

Sat meeting baby and gor.. Actually i also dunno wan go meet ma..
hai.. STRESSED lol...

Next monday BTT more stress.. ROAR.

ALl i can said is now i feel damm

STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!#%$^&*()

Today Dad saw junior hugging me. Actually if he know i also not suprise cos is like obvious lol..
every night talk on the phone, this whole week he is over at my house.
Anyway, dad didn't ask. If he ask i will jus tell the true. cos they are resposible too.

Who really care bout how I really feel nowaday?
I don't think my parent would bother bout me cos they only could think
of $$$$$$$$$$$$ MONEY!
If u tell them to give mi up for 1 million. I think they will. COS I'M NOTHING.
Started I still thought that they care bout me and is worry. but now i think i'm wrong.
They came to see if i'm died if not nobody will feed them next time. Although this may
sound like i'm not being fillial but the main point is do they even bother bout how i care.
From sec2 onwards their topic to me never leave money, though i know the importent of it but do you all ever think bout how I feel? All i wan is just some bit of childhood.
You people are the one that show me that a marriage would'nt last. u people
told me not to get marry. so i dun plan to.

I CAN TELL U STR8 IN YOUR FACE NOW I'M NO LONGER STR8 OR BI. I'M AJS

Baby, i really love u alot alot, without u my world will disappear. You treat me a 100 time better then andy. Just now I was piss off cos u lie to me but I know u did it cos u dun wan me think too much cos u know i will .. Baby, In this world, i love u the most. U are importent then anyone else.

*ps:Baby I'm crying.

I got bitten by dogs..

Hi guys,
I'm back from hospital 3 days for now. Was admitted there due to dog's bite on my right arm and lower lips. I went though 3 surgery and stay for 1 week in there.. It's a lifetime expericese I guess..

Now i'm full of wounds and a broken lower lip. Using one hand to type in the blog. =)

Baby broke up with the other guys le.. He's my only now JUNIOR BELONG TO CHRISTOPHER NOW!!!! I love u baby..

Althoght I got bitten by the dogs, I didn't cry or feel sad. Only few thing went in my mind that time.
1) Is Eschier going to get kill cos he bite me?
2) I got bitten on my lips, is baby going to leave me.
3) Will my parent bother bout me.

That's all can think of that time. I didn't really care if i will died. cos if i'm died I think on one will care.. Haha.. ( but i know baby will care)

Now, I'm going to be on long mc till Nov. After that I maybe going to transport dept. I miss kennel hand. If given a choice will go back. but my parent just dun allow. Even baby also wun allow de i think..

K, i going to rest now le.
Night people..

*My hand starting to hurt le .

I'm really sad. Baby went to his house last night.

I cry whole night morning went to work abit eyes pain.

never eat anything cos dun feel like..

Finish work when reach YCK station baby msg me then I eat a bread

baby i tired very hard not to cry le.. but can't sorry. Baby i really love u .

I really hope one day u will be mine only. baby i'm sorry, i know i'm selfish.

Ok here's 1 of the memories..

ps: Baby i really miss you. Don't ever leave me. I will die.

Feeling

Don't really feel good this few day , or should I said month.. Whatever..

Problem keep coming but i asked for it i guess.

1) Singtel bill come out to be $170... WTH.

2) M1 Bill Overdue by $100.. (Red letter received)

3) Owe Leo's $250.. ( But he give me till I'm ok to pay up..)

Things in my mind..

1) Leo's going to enlisted maybe I would get to see him that often then cannot chat le/

2) Trying very hard to cope with the kennel hand ways of doing things..

( I guess I'm doing quite well in this.. =))

3) Meeting Baby tmr, worry that he will walk out on me..

4) Baby's is tire after school everytime xin hao pain to hear him..

5) Baby ______________________________

100% of my mind I think 70% Baby's, 10% Leo's, 10% Work's, 5% family. The 5% left. Useless

Ok, I shall start talking bout my life last few day..

Monday: Got ill, High fever 39 degree.. hai..

Tuesday - Thursday(Today : WORKING WORKING WORKING..

No big new but found out that _ _ _ _ _ _ was a Ajs too.. haha..

Then e newspaper nowsaday keep reporting things bout gay.. aiyo..

O ya, Sat went out with Sharon and kathay.. here's the pic.. only abit..

Ok going to do other staff le..

Flying off.
Christopher

Just 3 day n our ltr. He said " i think we btter not continue our relationship cause you and me never like happy at all".. Just 3 day he said that le.. I dunno wat to said.. Why is this keep happened to me? Junior, you make me feel in love with u. now u said all this. Is like how my ex, andy, treated me you know? Am I REALLY THAT BAD THAT YOU NAD ANDY HAVE TO TOY WITH ME AND DUMP ME? TELL ME!!!!!!!!!! GOD! I had no longer the strenght to carry on. Let me off.. IF u want, just take me to heaven to be by your side. This lifetime had nothing for me to stay on.

Saw this in one of my friend blog. this is how I feel completly..


""I find it better to stay at home, doing my own stuffs,
rarther than to get in touch with the social circle.
so much things are happening, and so lil time to get over with.
i hate this, i do.
i don't sound emotional, neither am i upset.
i just need a space to let out wht's in me.
neither do i need any sympathy, so let me rant for all i want to.
nowadays, i hardly feel any dejection, nor am i depressed over certain stuffs.
yes, however, this time round, i feel otherwise.
let this be over soon, alright?
i will be strong.""

The last line, i will be strong.. I dun know will it happen to me .. cos i dun think i'm strong.
My power to live had been use up thinking bout my family, friend and money problem. Now with more problem coming I just hope someone is there to stay by my side. Maybe if cc will to be around she will understand. Why am i talking bout her? I'm must be crazy.. (XU ZHIHAO SHOULD NEVER HURT CC AGAIN!)

** He message me. He comfirm dump me now.. Wahaha.. I'm single .. again.

Christopher
Fully in coffin.

Christopher is in love.. I think

That's the nick of my msn.. refering to my dar junior..( actually the whole nick is bout him la)
Hai.. Stead with him two day then I like really crazy le... ROAR!!!!!!
Monday, he message me whole day so I feel he really care alot bout me..
Today, he never message me more then 5 message cos he was in sch doing things..
then i got angry.. I'm that petty man.. now then i know.. although I know sch very importent but I still cant make myself not to think wat he is doing.. hai.. I'm such a Fucker right..

Slap my own face man..

*** Although now i have him but never meet him before make me feel so un-confidence of myself and keep thinking that he will run away. To tell u guy the true, for the last two night I have been dreaming of him dumping me and left. I feel so sad like when andy left me. I hate tat feeling. If can I would rather not be awake ever ever again.

Today is the final dog obdience test. All pass.. Congrats to all..
Then for reward I open the can food bernard bought for eschier to share with other dogs..
but then didn't know that andy would go and tell him. then he look unhappy now.. hai..
I'm damm tire of all this things le.. Last time in Mac I must take care of all crew internal affair. Now I must watch out of people in Police in case anything happened i can cover myself...
I hate this type of feeling.. If can, let me stay at Sec school forever man.. I hate my working life..

I'm very tired, Emotionally & Physically. I need junior. Where is all the hug and kisses u promise.
Dar, I'm really tired. How i hope u will be with me everyday. But i know i'm dreaming..

Christopher
Lying in the coffin...

Remember that I said that I wanted to get a O level cert?

I haven even started studying yet..

It's sort of another 3 min things i wanted to do again.. hai..

anyway.. I trying to chagne back my mind set..

Talking bout work, been doing kennel duties last week, find that they have alot alot of internel matter need to clear up. I also dunno how to do work in this kind of sutiation.. it's like damm irritating... U dun like him, he dun like you.. For wat men.. after all we still must work together ma.. Since we are in a team why some people just like to work in their on ways.. I really dun understand.. Fuck up lol.I really hope i can make their working way change lol.. Even though I'm the most junior there.. I believe I can do it.. with my past exprenice in McDonalds I'm sure I can work things out. Cos i'm Christohper Xu .........

Anyway, eschier seem really unwell.. Though I really wan him to be with me for the Passing Out but I really dunno if he can still take it.. Stress.. Next week test le.. Eschier, please be strong .

K shall stop here.. see when free then countine.. haha..

Ending it with 3 darling of my.. =)

Eschier ( Mine )

Storm (JX Dog's)

Nimo ( Yong San Dog's)

Christopher

Till next time...

Me and me only me..

Now at my cousin xiiang house.. just finish fixing her computer..
nw waiting for the rain to stop cos raining so can't leave..

Didn't blog quite long so shall updated a little of me...
My darling eschier had an operation so now is no Mc then can't work
so i had to stop training and be kennel hand ... It's a good thing cos I can learn more thing
bout kennel hand first and somemore that Tiger training is now repeating every time
I'm also getting tire and bored of it le..

ytd was at camp doing my kennel duties then when collecting feedbowl
the dog Huey bite my leg and now it is swollen.. hai..
dunno wat to said, i only wan to take back my bowl u also dun have to bite right? aiyo..
Anyway, after that yong seng help me to treat the wound now is better le only have swollen..

Now, Nicky is angry with me for not replying his message then I also dunno what to do ..
hai ..
forget it..

Farewell..

Last few day few thing done..
1) ______________
2) Change my phone number.. But still got problem.. Settling with singtel tmr..
(Should I give to ALWL? My hear said yes while my brain said No... I'm confuse.. )

Been over spending alot this two month.. althought I have try very hard to contral but it seem like I just can't control it will.. I just can't meet end.. Bill after bill i'm settling.. I'm going crazy one day seeing the bill.. I even dream getting kill by mail.. WTH lol.. I'm only 19 not even 21 yet i stress over all this thing all the time and i du nhave any childhood..

I finally know why i'm so outcast at time le.. Cause when they are enjoying their Child or teenage hood.. I'm WORKING... EVERYDAY in and out of McDonald's working with no one to care bout how i feel.. I so damm piss off.. I really hope I can get out of all this mess..

Tmr off day.. I going to settle some matter then sunday going back to work..
Can someone tell me that I wun have to work till I drop died? I haven even had a day enjoying myself outside without worrying bout the bill coming in.. Can't I live in wealth for a day? just a day for memories will be nice.. hai..

I really hope all this nightmare of things will end by this year end.. I really dunno wanna take this to the new year.. All the overdue bill, debt and mood/relationship..

Nicky, I thought that I really had a chance to be with you. Didn;t realise that I was dreaming..
I fell for you.. The answer from you is like a tight slap on my face to wake up my bloodly idea..
I wishes u all the best..

Aaron, u haven been messaging me for day.. I dun noe why, I dun wan to know already also..
I too tire to think all this things... Tmr i leaving house early cos i dun wanna see mum..
Not that i'm not being a good son just that I'm sick and tired of her asking bout how's the thing for zhong done? u must do hor.. and when i tell her i'm done with it. NOT EVEN A THANKS!!!!@#$%^&* ( DOES ANYONE IN THIS BLOODLY FAMILY REALISE THAT I AM HERE? IN THIS BLOODLY FAMILY DOING ALL THIS SHIT? DO I REALLY HAVE TO DIE THEN U WILL KNOW I AM STILL UR SON? I HAD TURN INTO A Ajs(GAY) OVER THE YEAR. YET DO U REALLY CARE? )

ALOT PEOPLE COME IN AND OUT OF MY LIFE TILL NOW .. THINGS I NEVER THOUGHT WILL HAPPENED, HAPPENED..

I really have enough... All I want now is a nth.. nth at all... I no longer want anything else..

I'm taking a break.. I will not be online or replying SMS .. Other then going to camp I'm not going anywhere.. home & camp is the only two place.. In camp I will still tried my best to act normal cause tiger had warn me bout my performance. Why can't I leave my life my own ways? Maybe nobody ever can ? ...

This blog is a unknow to alot of u guys. I know. I'm not going to make this public.. So if over this period that i taking a break u all can't find me and got angry. I got nothing to said other then "SORRY"..

Christopher
Till next next time..

Sorry Guys, let me feel that someone still care for me that i'm still a importent person in someone else life...

This pic show my mood..

Ytd meet nicholas at SKRV.. first time talk to him.. seem abit shy.. hai..

anyway acc him till 11 plus.. He said he got somethings to tell me last night..

He did said but i just feel that he hads somethings else hiding from me..

To Nick: I hope was I told you didn't make u scare of me or even want to avoid me.. If those things really make u feel unwell .. Just take it as i never said anything.. Ok.. Sorry..

Just nw while otw back saw two couple hugging in MRT.. I know it's normal to see all this.. but i tried so hard to avoid seeing already why must you guy stand in my left and right direction which make me so hard to not see.. I really feel like crying no train just now.. All I need now is just a hug.. A simple normal hug .. I feel so weak now that I can no longer smile like I used to... Two things hurting me deep down in my heart.. I really hope there wouldn't be a 3th thing happening.. God, I'm already so pityful, why can't you give me abit of love? I really hating myself more and more...

Till then..

Christopher ...

Was died drunk ytd after the dinner for 7th month..
But............
I still went to movie with bestie at cine. We watch "money not enough 2" a nice show.
cried and laught..
After the movie we wentto take night rider to home.. I could have drop off at hg8 but i choose to drop at the "place". I shall not countine before i start crying again..

that's all for ytd..

till then..
Christopher

No photo at the moment.. I really don't have any mood... Sorry

Sadest National Day ever. Last year de national day if I didn't rmb wrongly..
I was with andy... this year ... I was with my bestie..

I was voimting around your house there near to the bus stop, tears start to fall..
I could have have walk by the other ways.. But i choose to walk that road like I choiced you.
Memories flow back in my mind, the kiss & hug in the lift, the sweet talk we have ..
Rmb the time u was drunk at bless and I went to fetch u home? You hold my hand in public, ask me do I like it? I really dunnop what to said.. I was really happy to have you. I didn't cherish you well that why you leave me all alone. I really misses you... I don't why my eyes is wet again.. I really hate myself. i want to leave this world. I................

Special Date...

This will be a very long, nagging and boring post cos i'm too lazy to post the photo..

Ytd, eschier, biten someone and he was sent to the hospital for stiches..
when he went home and take the medicine, he found he was allegent to the medicine so was warded in. Today morning went to see him in the van together with other trainer and trainee.
He look fine and will be discharge in the afternoon.. After Artika & Roslan incident, I really hate to hear new that people are warded in hospital for whatever reason cause that i'm worried that they will be like atika, leave me in this world without them..

After visiting him, we went to queenstown to have our lunch, chicken rice, not so bad.
Went back to camp, bath the dog then end of the training.. 4pm went to CO Run, weekly rountine.. After that then went to change up. When changing up I siad that let's wait for the other's as the only can leave at 5pm and we kennel hand can leave at 4.30pm. as it was only half an hour different. JX show a face of wanting to leave early I also dunno why, why can't he like wait for other which are also friend of his? Really don't him anymore..

Today morning also have something happened. Andy, message me saying that he had broke up with his boyfriend already. Went ask him why he said he is slping. So at night I message him and ask if he is ok. He siad ok. And guess what, he is looking for new stead already.. He must had felt very good. and only me this idiot will keep worrying for him for nth..

Lun, i'm really stress up this few month. Many things had happened. Since the day I was enlisted till now. I still rmb u broke up with mi during my 1st week in camp. My heart melted to the ground. Till now, it's not fix yet. This blog was set up with only 3 people knowing, Leo/Shirley/AARON.. I'm not letting alot of people know cause i know if there see this blog. then will pass to you. all the thing i wrote here was only men for mi to read and reflect.

I'M REALLY STRESS AND TENSE UP THIS FEW MONTH. I NEED SOMEONE TO BE HERE WITH ME .

AARON IS NOT REPLYING MY MESSAGE.

I ALSO DUNNO WHY.

MAYBE I'M JUST VERY A

IRRTATING PERSON.

Till next..........

Christopher

Yoz...
I'm back from work at k9..
seem like quite some time didn't update bout my life..

Yesterday, Went to work at 0800 after the "briefing" in the training room, we went to the lobby to wait for out trainer. waited for 1hour and they came at 0900.. Went up to the training room again.. trainer Chee go thought some safety rule for dog handling.. after that we went for lunch.

After lunch we went to collect the dog leash and other staff from Auntie Bee Lay(Nagging). As usual, she use her very "nice voice and very nice tone" tell us not to spolit the item she gave as ALL NEED TO RETURN!!!! Anyway after that went to take our dogs out for a short grooming to build the rapport..

Here our dog's name:

Christopher = Eschier

Andy = Heizi

JX = Storm

Kok Weng = Fax

WL = Bruno

Drug Addict = Pira

Eschier was the dog of Bo Wei the kennel hand, he pass to me for my training.. Thanks =)

Grooming was fun and over-all ok.. Was told that kennel hand can leave at 1630, but we end up playing beach volley ball(BVB) with some regular and trainer chan. I look so stupid in the game cause of my char, I like a complete idiot in game.. I hate it man.. Why can't i have a normal life like other so I don't have to work since small..

Meet leo at night at SKRV for dinner at McDonald. Borrowed 50 buck from him again.. hai.. total owed him 200 buck le.. I'm like so useless keep borrowing money..

Today, Samething, went to work at 0800 and was told that before we start work we kennel hand (JX & me) must go wash the kennel at least 1 or 2 row which is bout 20 dogs kennel...Think I will do it tmr ba..After that went to briefing at training room. When it ended we all went to the kennel to take out dog. Today training was ok other then eschier is not co-operating with me. really dunno wat to do with him. his ex-ex-trainer say he is use to choking, so no matter how hard i try choking he wun feel anything. So it seem like i going to need to use other method to train him..

Heart still feel as hollow as it was..

When will it be fill up..

I really don't know.

Till next time..........

Christopher

Just back from my grandmother's house.

Wake up at 11 today, watch i little tv then went to HG mall

at 1pm to the library.. Borrowed two book one bout German Shepherd the other

bout fitness..

This few day,or should I say this few week that i'm completly STRESS up..

I don't understand how life turn how this way, I'm so damm stress up with all the things

around me.. Family, Friend & alittle of work.

I have been saying it for the last few post i guess.. but never mind.. I shouldn't said anymore.

I having in debt now. Owning Leo's $150, Mum $50 and the phone bill coming up..

God, if you can, please save me.. I so fucking stress up now..

house washing machine is going to spolit soon I guess.. Anytime this year I can expect to

be washing the colthes with my two hand ba.. ARH!!!!!!!!!!

Work = NS = PiOLICE (SOC)

IPPT is going to be the nightmare to me man.. SOC standard is so diff to pass..

I'm not saying can't pass at all this time cause I trust that I should be able to pass if I work really hard from now on..

K9 unit is my currenly vocation.. I voluteer to be a kennel hand. which mean i had to take care of

all the kennel and the dog if their handler is on long leave.. I also got my own dog name, Ashlier. I can't rmb how to spell.. once i get to rmb how to spell then i correct his name in here.. Sorry in the meantime..

My fucking brother Medical checkup letter is here.. Here i'm at home waiting for him to be free so I can fill up for him, there he is going out till late and waiting for maria to help him. When will he ever change his fucking attidune. Really feel like slapping him.. Can't he grow up for once .

He's already 17 yet he don't know how to take care of the himself. WTF lol...

Leo, I'm sorry, due to the hetic schdeule, i had to cancel the training with you.. once i can setted down i will let u know k.. sorry..

Till next time...

Christoper Xu

PS:My heart is broken, Sent to the doctor. the doctor said nothing can fix it up ever using hot gule won't help. Only one thing will help me now. TRUE LOVE. I know it's impossible to get so I will just live heartless for the time being till someone will shower me with love ba..

Ink of today post show's my mood.

I felt so hollow in my heart now..

I don't understand or know why

I felt so cold, i wanted andy's hug again..

I thought I won't have let it past,

but why do it have to

come back to me.

Tear flowing as I key in today entries..

Many things had happened this year's

I, from a normal guy turn into a Bi, and now, almost a

AJs..

Had a wonderful stead, but two-time her.

In the past, I aways say that I can be the most devolted stead.

Right now, my heart had turn hollow with no feeling. other then

bleeding after bleeding blood.. It can do nothing at all..

My Life now is in a total mess.

Family: Mum forever nagging bout money, dad forever at

home doing nothing & Zhong, forever the mindset would'nt grow up to think

Friend: Other then Leo, I really don't think I have true friend.

They look for me only when they need help after that,

I will be dump aside..

BGR: Once had a gal which is perfect but I just don't think

I suit her.. Given my Status of Bi.

BBR: After Andy, I didn't stead with any other guy. Or should I

say I'm fucking ugly that nobody wants me. Talk to aaron just now, he is now

happiey attached. I just hate myself.

I haven really thought about this question for a long time,

but I suddendly think that, If one day I go missing or pass away, will people still remember that there is this person call Zhihao(Christopher).

Who will be the first one to seach for me high and low? Who?

I really dunno, someone or somegod, please guide

me out of this mess.. I really need help..

Many things happend today at K9, but i have completely no mood to say

anything bout it.

forget it man..

Till then..

Fucked oFF.@#$%^&*()

2nd day at K9

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Wake up by dad..

See andy & Noel blog.

And off to work now..

HOpe something nice will happened today.

Anyway friend.

I'm Going MIA..

Heart Broken need time to fix..

Sending it to the hospital..

Till next time...

Christopher

Yoz.. I'm back..
Okie let me updated bout my last 3 day life..

Sat:
Slept the whole day cause that day before went out with leo to study E-math at kovan mac...

Sun:
Went to grandma house to visit her then when home to sleep..

(Seem Like i'm a good boy for 2 days wor.. haha)

Monday, Today:

Report to SOC HQ and waited for K9 to pick up, we was there at 8am they came 12nn so we wasted 3 hour doing nothing.. Nvm.. anyway reach K9 HQ then we was bout to a tour round there.. They actually allow something that HTA dun allow.. but it sound logical lol.

Then went to the "Barrick" for doggy.. Help then to wash the room.. Then JX kanna the dog shit. haha. really dunno want to laught at him or pity him.. anyway after that went to the meeting room. Met the CO K9, told us the long long story then change another officer( I dun even know who he is). After that went to the lobby sit and do nth till 5.30pm.. haha

End of day now at home resting..

Tmr is yet another day.. Doggy, here i come.. haha

Till then..

PS:Aaron, I may be sad to hear that you got a stead but I still give you my best wishes.. Take care didi... (Gor)

Posting day!

Today woke up at 6am meet JR at kovan MRT to go HTA together..

Reach CCK round 7.20am, went to McDonald to have BF...

Then off to HTA for posting ....

Reach HTA, Change to No.3 uniform and went to MPH str8..

Waited for awhile at MPH then was brought to SOC HQ at Queenstown.

Took finger print and photo over there.. and most importently... I GOT MY WARRENT CARD..

haha.. Finally, I'm a real police officer le.. Wahaha..

So stay there till round 5pm then went off to home.. it took 40min to reach home man.. anyway i reach home then now here blogging cause later meeting leo for night studying and chit chat..

Looking forward to next monday de training..

=) I'm starting to Love My life!! =)

Till then...

This few week I seem to have alot of things in mind, alot of thing i want to do... but it all seem so impossible to get it done.. alothought I always tell myself I can, I still think I can't.

Firstly, Is that I just can't save up enough money to provide me to complete my wish.. alothough I tried very hard. The end result is alot I CAN'T SAVE!!! I really regrat for not saving during my school day if not I would have get all my wish to be in place.

Secondly, I just don't have the enough time to complete all the things I want to get, things like O level and Dipolma, I completely have no time to do it now.

My family just can't support me in whatever that i wanna do. I really need some metal support. Sometime I hate my family to be like this but I just can't blame them for all this to happened cause in the end I'm still the one who didn't plan well .. If iI would have whole heartedly studied I could have already gotten my O and Dipolma Cert.. hais. Things just don't goes the way I want them to...

Updated again tmr once I get to my new unit..

Till Next time.....

PS: Aaron, I know you are very tired and sad.. I would disturb you this few day. I will wait for your mesage . Sorry that I can't help you.. Useless Kor.

Mes Update

Ok seem like it's been sometime since I last updated..

Monday (21 July)
A day at camp as normal with only POP rehearsal WHOLE DAY..

Tuesday (22 July)
POP dinner had a mini concert and everyone enjoys it alot.. After the concert we all can book out.. So I went to Xiang house to pick up the computer CPU..

Wednesday (23 July)
POP Actual.. Overslept, wake up at 7am. Rush out of the house. Mum gave me 50 buck to take a cab there (Sorri Mum.. Wasted that money) Anyway reach there at 8.15am. Almost late. Went in thought there was rehearsal but due to raining so it was cancel.. Know the posting , I'm going to K9 unit as a dog-handler.. hais.. Dunno to sad or happy.. Anyway after the POP I want home with mum then once again I went to take the monitor of the CPU.. Xiang's dad pass me some 20 buck to take cab home as it was heavry.

Today..
Wake up at 6.10am as got leo wake me up.. Thanks buddy.. Went to take bus to AMK then take train to CCK.. Reach round 8am.. Bought a EM meal to eat while waiting for JS.. After that took a bus to HTA. Reach went to barrick for coy fatigue. We did nothing other then sleeping and playing PSP.. But we still pass the inspection and got to go off..

We went to Roslan grave to pay our respect to him. After that then I went home str8 le..

And now blogging..

Tmr I will be brought to K9 for introdution.. As the website said. We will be having a 2 month basic dog handling skill and be given a dog..

Last Book Out!

Ok, i'm here back at home after a simple day.

Morning:
In camp doing POP rehearsal from 7 am to 10am. Rest of the time used in sleeping..

Afternoon:
Sleeping In progress

Evening:
Walk out
Meet Leo, went to Jalan Kayu for dinner. After that took a bus to SK Plaza to chit chat, on the way there something happened.

There was this auntie, let's call her Bitch. At the stop we broad the bus she starting complaining that the other off-duties bus driver was disturbing her. So she wanted to log a complain and started to make a big fuss out of nothing. (Cause given her size + Look, If you pay me $20K I will still need to consider if i want to talk to her lol.) So that bitch started scolding scolding and scolding and thinking that the bus only she's there alone. Anyway the main point is here, the off-duties bus driver was alighting at the same stop as us so when we stop at the bus stop she started shouting "Hey you don't go down! Following me go interchange, I want to complain you.". And she demand the bus driver not to countine to drive till the police arrvied. Appenrlly that the couple infront of her had just finish their day of work, wanting to reach home immemdialy to rest yet, that bitch ask the uncle to stop driving. So the auntie also join in the fight. So the started shouting in the bus around till the off-duties driving leave the bus. then he bus drove off....

So to conclude the whole incident: Don't always think that people want to touch you when you are not worth. And even if you got touch, say thank you, cause this prove that you are a least "touchable"!

Night people...
Christopher
Till next time..............

Going back to camp later.. It's a sunday again. Another 2 more walk out then that's it. No more for me. haha...

Anyway this week is full of drill if i'm not wrong.. hope my leg would't hurt..
It's also just after 5 day at home since 11 march.. my enlistment day.. haha

Now i'm watching "Mr Fighting" on channel U. and packing my bag for camp..

This morning wake up saw CC msg. Suddendly feel that I have hurt her so much and also that i'm so fucking childish.. I'm sorry .

Ok..
I got nothing more to say.
Shall countine next week..

Christopher
Till next time..

SORRY AARON CHAN FU HAO

CAUSE I SPELLED YOUR NAME WRONGLY.

Du Bu Qi! =)

Forgive me K?

Today update..

-Went out with Leo for dinner at KFC Compass.
-Went to Popular to see what book to buy for my O Level Studies
-Found Out that my english is P6 Standard
-Decided not to takt geog but change to E-Math. (english,Double Math, Chinese & POA)
-Went to SKRV to chit chat at Mac
-Saw Kamy
-Got my NS pay

Today was a short day cause didn't went out to town till late night. Tomorrow morning going to meet Leo for breakfast then goin to do my own shopping at Ikea.

Tomorrow I shall take more pic and update in ..

**** Arron Chan Fu Hao, You better take good care of yourself of stop saying things about drying, cause if you really die I believe alot of other will be sad. They's always someone to care for you.

Christopher
Till next time..