Lot's of things happened. I going to cut all short short cos i abit drunk and head pain pain le ..

Camp:
ALL the same. Everyday walk around, slack at transport. damm boring la.. Hate going to base now.
What a life am I leading in ns man.

Friend:
Meet up with andy last sat to go someplace..
Monday I meet joe to go Paragon to the m1 shop there cause he wan to return the Vodaphone.
after that when to far east meet jeslin. talk alot. joe was quite pissed off. after that meet yen then go back together. ( Joe, yen is sad can u see? )

Relationship:
Baby this few day acted strangely so I asked him to day wat happened is there something wrong or he had another guy outside? He said his mum forbid us to be together. I can sense his mum is more importent then me. So I really dunno how it will turn out. I hated this life.

Life in a mess. What the hell.

CHRISTOPHER IS A FOOL + FREAK + FUCKER = MOTHER FUCKING IDIOT!!!!

Yesterday: Went out with Andy to buy shoe. Meet him at City Link mall then went to Heeren and Taka then cine . he bought his shoe as taka and we had our dinner at cine b1 the Japanese restaurant. After awhile weihao came.. so after the meal andy went smoking and I went off cause since he got people pei le then don't need me pei be i think. Actually he ask me pei him go PLAY! but i didn't want to go as I was injury and also because with my look i will be a idiot there.
Sorry andy.. Next time when my face look better i will go down with u. =)

Today: Slack at home whole day as got no plan at all. Junior went to his grandparent house so I'm all alone.. Actually thought andy will like call and chat with me( I dunno wat i have this thinking.. I'm crazy i guess) but he didn't. Was on the phone with baby just now, was talking bout some topic but dunno how we got in to the topic of my look. then I asked him " If my face didn't recover after the sugery this month end will he still love me?" He gave me a answer "Dunno". I was in shock. No matter how hard he explain I feel just unwell. I didn't know how to explain it. So we hung up. I really am worry. Am I just someone that will get dump by people all the time? I dunno to to think well now. Someone maybe can enlighen me?

Wat the hell is going on. Tell me. Is look raelly that importent?

HAte myself.

Going to kill myself if I can man.
Christopher

Updates

Time to update my life this week..

Monday: Went to McDonald's CPP to visit the auntie, but not all working only saw kim, rohan and sow chun.. Karine let me in to have a "store tour". McD had indeed change alot since I last step in it on 10 March 08..Trust me guys, the promise I make, I will be back to work with u guys again. ( I wanted to work at McD was not because of the paid cos the don't paid high but I going back there to work cause of the passion in it. I have ketchup in my vein I guess . =)) During the night went to take BTT. I failed. For the very first time I tail a test in life.. maybe because that I never study hard ba. But reassure I will be back taking it.. =)

Tuesday - today: all the way at home other then going to the NTUC below I never went out at all.. So guai ar.. haha.

Every since monday never see baby le.. I miss baby.. hai.. anyway I will be back in base tmr for work le. I really dunno if I can go back to Kennelhand..

Going off le.. Blog again other time..
Christopher
-K9 Assistant Paravet
-Ex- McDonald's Floor Manager that do 2nd ass job =P
-1st Aider

Pics updating..

This was taken in my bunk ion POP day..

Junior

I had a fight with him.. He's was my best friend LEO SIM..

I miss the Old McDonald's Compass Point cos it holds all my memories of McD Life.

Hospital Food.. Look nice but ... =)

They poke 3 time at 3 different place on my hand...

My lovely Dog.. Eschier.. Although u bite me. I still love u..

Christohper w xiiang ( My lovely cousin)

Christopher w my nephew..

The injury done by eschier

And the injury on my lips..

Clearing.............

Went out with baby today to watch movie actually him gor coming but in the end never come.. But never mind so went to watch "House Bunny". Very nice show I love it man.. Anyone watching again ask me along k.. haha... Anyway then after movie we went to eat at long john after that went home.

Just now was thinking what to buy for shirley cos it's her birthday then we are such good sister so cannot don't buy her a gift ma.. haha.. So I think tmr i meeting Joe to go buy cause baby tmr need to go his grandma house.

Just Received my paid, total $660. Then I spend $300 paying all bill then also gave baby 30 buck. I so nice right.. haha.. Then I bought a perfume for myself.. I shall save $100 for paying back leo next month if not it will be very diffi for me to take out $270 one short.

My wound are recover, i going back to camp on 21st this month.. I'm so looking forward to this cause I'm damm bored at home everyday. Anyway I will be going back to kennelhand to see my cute doggi.. haha.. How i hope mum will let me buy a dog back home. I hope to take egon back once i get back. If can eschier too.. But if i really taking him back I think I will need time to build back the rapport. Tiger that time saw me like that he also feel back I think. But Sir, u are a great trainer so don't blame urself if u are. ( Now my wound are all recovering in progress just that my middles fingre still feel very numb. I just hope every thing's will be fine.. And my lip are damm small ok.. haha)

I have no plan for now till next year. Now that I clear the phone bill then next month clear Leo's debt I will clear everything .. YA!! haha.. After so many month in debt I Zhong yu can clear all debt. haha.. After that I will try to pass my driving by next year new year so i can drive during that time.. haha.. That's my wish..

My birthday coming, 8 Nov... If anyone wanna buy gift for me.. GET MI A CRUMPLE SILNG BAG CAN? I was hoping to get it by dec.. haha.. But this is private blog so i think i will have to buy it myself.. haha.. never mind i will take it as buying a birthday gift for myself. haha

Baby ask me sleep now then I here blogging if he see sure will nag at me haha..

Anyway Last of all.. Thanks all friend for ur care and concern given to me went I was in hopsital and also all those gift tat was given by camp and Kennelhand.

And last last of all.. I just now went to see vincent blog and he was talking bout gays. then I find one line very true.

"Lesbian are ok, gays arent"

Don't u guy think that it's that true? What the diffierent with then when both are homosexual?

hai..

Christopher
Off I go.. haha

I'm sick now so is baby.. I have slight headache now, so is he..
I just remove my right arm bandage left only my palm bandage.

I didn't sleep last night till morning 6am. cos i miss baby so much every time close my eye
also see him.. then keep see him like very sick.. Baby is really very ill now cause the way he talk to me is very different then normal. First time he ask me to stop asking stupid question cause he is very painful in his head. I feel so useless cause I'm unable to help him in any ways.

Today message eswari and ask bout the ez-link card. I think i will get it done next week when she return to camp and fax over the NP299 report. Sorry to trouble you man es.

This few week stay at home all day long. damm bored and tired. People resting at home should feel more refresh, but not for my case. I getting more and more tired. Maybe is because I keep wasting time Maybe i should do something useful tmr onwards. maybe study bout pets and the treatment that can be use. Since I can't be a good kennel hand then I shall be a gd assistant to es next time.

Next week monday is my BTT. I have no confidence at all men. Due to this is the first time I'm taking a test without going to any class and all by self study. From pri till ite even police I also learn though lesson before test. First time I'm taking a test without confidence. I'm so lost man.

O ya, Ytd was the 1st month for me and baby. Baby I love u. although I can't pei u .

Feel like ending my life

I'm TIRED!!!!!!!!
Fucking tired over alot of staff.. Work, family & etc
Sometime I really feel very tired, feel like giving up everything.

Salary coming out this sat yet almost all I going to use to paid back the debt.
Singtel is rushing me for the payment and also i wan to pay Leo back soonest cos
he need the money to settle his family problem .( that's wat he said)

Sat meeting baby and gor.. Actually i also dunno wan go meet ma..
hai.. STRESSED lol...

Next monday BTT more stress.. ROAR.

ALl i can said is now i feel damm

STRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!#%$^&*()

Today Dad saw junior hugging me. Actually if he know i also not suprise cos is like obvious lol..
every night talk on the phone, this whole week he is over at my house.
Anyway, dad didn't ask. If he ask i will jus tell the true. cos they are resposible too.

Who really care bout how I really feel nowaday?
I don't think my parent would bother bout me cos they only could think
of $$$$$$$$$$$$ MONEY!
If u tell them to give mi up for 1 million. I think they will. COS I'M NOTHING.
Started I still thought that they care bout me and is worry. but now i think i'm wrong.
They came to see if i'm died if not nobody will feed them next time. Although this may
sound like i'm not being fillial but the main point is do they even bother bout how i care.
From sec2 onwards their topic to me never leave money, though i know the importent of it but do you all ever think bout how I feel? All i wan is just some bit of childhood.
You people are the one that show me that a marriage would'nt last. u people
told me not to get marry. so i dun plan to.

I CAN TELL U STR8 IN YOUR FACE NOW I'M NO LONGER STR8 OR BI. I'M AJS

Baby, i really love u alot alot, without u my world will disappear. You treat me a 100 time better then andy. Just now I was piss off cos u lie to me but I know u did it cos u dun wan me think too much cos u know i will .. Baby, In this world, i love u the most. U are importent then anyone else.

*ps:Baby I'm crying.