saw my di de msn. "Which Poly?!!" Then I was thinking, why didn't i make it to poly? Why didn't i study harder that time? I really don't understand... I hate my life now totally.. I wanna a new life.

All the time I have been trying to change my style of living to suit the ever changing world..

I'm poor and ugly, my I used to have a kind hearted heart but now? I have lost it.. to the world of Ajs that I need to show my bitchesness to defend myself..

Many thing I wanna do.. but.. I dunno how to start even.

Eugene was telling me about the feeling with Alvin, I admit. I was jealous.

Alvin tell me lovey lovey thing with his dar. I am jealous.

No matter how hard I try not to be jealous. I can't.

I'm jus a coward.

I hate crying. Like now..

Christopher