Time flies, It's 2012..
Looking back past year, I guess I haven much accomplish much in life..

Work
Been in TPL1 for the past 1 year 10 month. From a TFM to nw a 2nd Assistant.. Thought I have much settle down at work but I start to think, what more I can get from the work? Job sasitifation is not as high as it use to be.. I love working with the team as there is alway fun and laughter while at work but ever sinc Yvonne left wrk seem to be a little more bored I will say. No more high expectation from boss making team very slack down, we no longer strive for excellent but we start to find fault in each other job

I have crew telling me, Chris, why have you slacked down so much after yvonne left, is it you don't like new boss. My answer to it; it's not that I don't like new boss, it' just that I will truely said that her expectation is not as high as what yvonne had set for me. I'm so use to set high expectation to myself so as I will not fall too far behind yvonne expectation. I feel bad at times whn I sees yvonne as I know, I have fail her expectation.

What happened in 2011 has already happend and I can't change them anymore so moving forward, here's the GOAL for myself in 2012.

1) Never jump onto things without getting true FACT of incident.
2) To be fair to all crew and take care of them like how Yvonne does
3) Never shout at manager at work ( I know I always do that and it's really a major dis-respect thus I have to change)
4) To use more PLEASE and THANK YOU.
5) Read up more on basic station knowledge ( I have slacked too much from it)

You might be thinking, where is the goal to be promoted 1st Assistant. I believe the more I think of promotion the more promotion won't come as I always will think to do more EXTRA but not my job. I guess if I can work to prefect the above 5 goal I'm already am a 1st Assistant to myself.

Family
I guess I have grown up alittle in family matters. I no longer hate mum as much, I no longer hate brother as much. I no longer blame dad for not working.

All this blaming and disliking people only make my feel worse. loving them might be a better option to make them love me more back.

Love
This 4 letter work really have a very deep meaning that I will not understand. I have been always very despo wanting to be attach and alway get hurt or hurt people after breaking up. I guess I should just stay alone untill I know how to love myself then I can truely go love others.

Growing up never been fun for me but I guess learning stage have long past after the age of 21. Nw, it's time to put what I have learn into practics.

Chris.