Just 3 day n our ltr. He said " i think we btter not continue our relationship cause you and me never like happy at all".. Just 3 day he said that le.. I dunno wat to said.. Why is this keep happened to me? Junior, you make me feel in love with u. now u said all this. Is like how my ex, andy, treated me you know? Am I REALLY THAT BAD THAT YOU NAD ANDY HAVE TO TOY WITH ME AND DUMP ME? TELL ME!!!!!!!!!! GOD! I had no longer the strenght to carry on. Let me off.. IF u want, just take me to heaven to be by your side. This lifetime had nothing for me to stay on.

Saw this in one of my friend blog. this is how I feel completly..


""I find it better to stay at home, doing my own stuffs,
rarther than to get in touch with the social circle.
so much things are happening, and so lil time to get over with.
i hate this, i do.
i don't sound emotional, neither am i upset.
i just need a space to let out wht's in me.
neither do i need any sympathy, so let me rant for all i want to.
nowadays, i hardly feel any dejection, nor am i depressed over certain stuffs.
yes, however, this time round, i feel otherwise.
let this be over soon, alright?
i will be strong.""

The last line, i will be strong.. I dun know will it happen to me .. cos i dun think i'm strong.
My power to live had been use up thinking bout my family, friend and money problem. Now with more problem coming I just hope someone is there to stay by my side. Maybe if cc will to be around she will understand. Why am i talking bout her? I'm must be crazy.. (XU ZHIHAO SHOULD NEVER HURT CC AGAIN!)

** He message me. He comfirm dump me now.. Wahaha.. I'm single .. again.

Christopher
Fully in coffin.