Yesterday: Went out with Andy to buy shoe. Meet him at City Link mall then went to Heeren and Taka then cine . he bought his shoe as taka and we had our dinner at cine b1 the Japanese restaurant. After awhile weihao came.. so after the meal andy went smoking and I went off cause since he got people pei le then don't need me pei be i think. Actually he ask me pei him go PLAY! but i didn't want to go as I was injury and also because with my look i will be a idiot there.
Sorry andy.. Next time when my face look better i will go down with u. =)

Today: Slack at home whole day as got no plan at all. Junior went to his grandparent house so I'm all alone.. Actually thought andy will like call and chat with me( I dunno wat i have this thinking.. I'm crazy i guess) but he didn't. Was on the phone with baby just now, was talking bout some topic but dunno how we got in to the topic of my look. then I asked him " If my face didn't recover after the sugery this month end will he still love me?" He gave me a answer "Dunno". I was in shock. No matter how hard he explain I feel just unwell. I didn't know how to explain it. So we hung up. I really am worry. Am I just someone that will get dump by people all the time? I dunno to to think well now. Someone maybe can enlighen me?

Wat the hell is going on. Tell me. Is look raelly that importent?

HAte myself.

Going to kill myself if I can man.
Christopher